1991
Denali
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Phil still didn't know. He still didn't know that I lied about Jeff. He doesn't know the truth about what he really said. It killed me to keep it from him but I had to because I knew he'd want to fight Jeff. I didn't want that for his reputation, or mine.
But I couldn't stand being so weak about it. I had power, I could fight but how could I fight if I can't even look at the man?
Today was finally the Poland show I had been aching to play. I was so excited to give this show everything I had and just get the crowd really fucked up. I teased my hair a little bit, and changed into my "stage" clothes. They weren't really my stage clothes because I wore this stuff everyday, but it was sort of my stage clothes since they were easier to jump around in.
"There she is" Phil said in the door way, making me turn around with a smile.
"Do I look dumb? Do not lie" I said slumping my posture.
"You look hot" Phil said smirking and looking me up and down.
"Shut up" I blushed, walking up to him and kissing him. He put his hands on my waist and I turned around so we could look at ourselves in the mirror.
"I don't look that bad Hm?" I laughed and so did he.
As much as I just wanted to spend my time with Phil, I knew I had a job to do. Before I could get out of his grip, John came in the doorway.
"Gross...Anyways Denali get going before your new fans get bored" I gave Phil a toothy smile.
We both walked out to the left stage and he wished me good luck before I walked onstage.
"Goodnight!" I yelled, running off the stage and back stage with the rest of the guys so we could wait for Annihilator to play.
As Phil held my hand, Jeff approached the left stage giving me a mean glare. I just looked away, still I couldn't face him. Someday I would, and he'd regret everything...
"Denny?" Phil said.
"Hm?" I looked up to him.
"You okay?"
"Yeah I'm fine"
As a party went on backstage with our crew and some others, I decided to let Phil do his own thing and talk with his friends. I had introduced myself to them and they were very kind, yet very weird. Wasn't everyone here?
As I walked through the backstage, some one grabbed my hand and pulled me into a room. It was Jeff.
"You slut...I swear if you told anyone-"
"Let me go I didn't say shit!" I said trying to get free.
"Bullshit" he said pulling me closer to him.
"I didn't!" I yelled in his face. I hated him, I wanted him out of my life.
"Would be a fuckin' shame if I told Anselmo you cheated on him"
"What do you want from me?!" I yelled loosing my shit.
"Everything" He said lowly.
"Go to hell."
He tightened his grip on my arm and pulled me close to him, putting his gross hands on my body. He opened the door and shoved me out of it locking it behind him and slamming it right in my face.
I left the party without telling Phil or anyone. I got a cab ride back to the hotel and sat in my room alone, again.
I've kept quiet, but why does it keep occurring? Why doesn't he believe me? Would any one else believe me?
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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄 - p. anselmo
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