Broken pieces

Pain

Just Pain

It's always there

Always hiding 

Every happiness is but a fleeting moment, an illusion before it all comes crashing down again 

My broken pieces

Forever broken

I can't seem to put them together again 

What golden scars 

My scars are still pouring out blood 

Always crying in bed for the same goddamn reasons again 

Listening to songs that make my tears silently flow down my face 

Taking refugee in my bubble of emotions 

But I gotta act like everything is fine tomorrow 

Pick up my broken pieces 

Put on a smile 

Do what I have to do 

Cause that's how the world works 

You aren't allowed to be broken for the same reasons over and over again 

It becomes an excuse 

Get over it 

Be stronger

Stop breaking 

I wish I fcking could

I'm tired of fighting with myself 

Honestly

I wish I was stronger too 

I wish I couldn't feel everything so deeply

I wish I wouldn't combust when I was angry 

I wish my soul wouldn't break when I was hurt 

I wish I wouldn't cry tears of blood 

I wish I could be stronger 

- July 31 2022