Broken pieces

I love you

You fell like a flower petal into the garden of my life 

caressing my cheeks and drying my tears as you made your way into my heart

once again, I was shattering 

trying so hard to breath 

trying so hard not to drown in my darkness again

struggling while trying to keep myself together

but then here you were 

with your gentle words and your soft voice

you made my pain go away 

you love me, like no one else ever loved me 

for the first time ever in my life, I felt wanted, I felt seen, for just being my authentic self 

with each passing day, I grew more and more fond of you

until, I fell in love 

but it wasn't an intense and sudden fall 

it was sweet, like a little butterfly landing on its flower, soft 

at first, it was hard to accept it all

was it real? isn't this too incredible to be true? 

I wanted to hope I finally found someone to love me, right?

I wanted to hope that I won't be the only one pouring my soul and heart out

But it was so hard because it always ended bad for me and I didn't want the false hopes to shatter me again

but you also opened up yourself to me 

you showed me the part of you you were embarassed about

I showed you the part of me I wanted to keep to myself 

so love, don't worry about it 

I always knew I was meant to love a villain

so I'm going to love you so intensily, so sweetly, so tenderly

I'm going to hold your hand and we're going to walk up this road together

No matter what, as long as you fight for me 

as long as you are willing to do the effort to make this work 

as long as you're mine and I'm yours

I will fight for you till I break 

I will hold you in my arms in your moments of weakness

I will dry your tears and kiss your scars and I will love you

Mon coeur, mon amour, mon homme

I love you

Will you love me right too?

~ March 5 2023