Lost Half

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Dear Ethan,

I know you would have wanted me to continue my life and become successful like we planned to do when you were alive and everything was perfect, but I can't do that without you. I can't do anything without finding some relation to you, some memory.

I've decided to commit suicide. I have to see you again, Ethan, I can't handle being alone anymore. After the assembly, the bullying didn't stop, even though Hayden was signed up for boarding school. My life is horrible, so I might as well just kill myself like everyone tells me to.

I've decided to overdose and jump in the creek outside my house. I'll drown or die from overdosing. If I survive one, I can't survive the other. It's a full-proof plan.

I am so excited to see you, but of course I had to make a suicide note for my family.

"Dear Friends and Family, As you know I've been having a rough time recovering from the accident and my best friend Ethan's death. This whole situation has been very stressful for me and I've given up. I find a memory in everything. I can't live that way. I've decided to take my own life to escape from the pain and enter the happiness where I can see Ethan again. I'll miss all of you so much. With love, Emily"

I've realized that I barely interact with any living people anymore. After you died, I shut myself off from the world and hid in my room, writing you stupid letters that you'll never see. They're useless. I write them anyways. Again, I'll see you soon