I know I am crazy and a little hard to love
I can be cryptic and brazen, an acquired taste for sure
I prance around like I don't give a fuck, when I give out a lot
I never say what I'm feeling; I prefer to lie and appear secure
All it took for you to judge me was for me to cross the quad alone
And I didn't even have a chance, I was instantly disowned
Why'd you never ask me for a glimpse into my mind first
Before you made opinions of me that have stuck around for years
I may not have a pretty face, but I have a captivating mind
I have a golden heart too if only you would stick around to find
I get uncomfortable easily so I never threw a smile
I am big on personal space so I often come off as hostile
I know I appear vicious with a biting tongue and my lack of charm
But I promise you that my intentions are pure, I mean no harm
I have many opinions and I am vocal about my thoughts
I don't like disrespect and pretenses, I hate people who double cross
I often feel trapped by your expectations and opinions of me
Even though I embody none, I feel forced to fit into them just for you to see
That I am what you think; I feel conditioned to believe
That I will always ride my high horse, and no love I'll ever receive
I have a sword always ready to fight
A few matches in my hands, ever alight
I know their fire reflects in my eyes
But don't you see that they only burn in them what I despise?
I overreact sometimes, I'm awkward when you cry
But I won't ask any questions, I wouldn't judge or pry
If you bare your heart to me, I will listen all you like
I'll make you feel safe, give you all the space you'd like
I want to make you feel comfortable, so I forget myself for a while
I try to be relatable, say false truths, and sympathize
I probably end up looking stupid, but hey, at least I tried
Can you say the same looking right into my eyes?
-Vaish
(21/10/22)
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A/N: Just a thoughtful hour of self-introspection and dissection of the past.
My mom helped me with the title. She gave me two great ones, 'The Undercurrent' and 'Still Waters Run Deep'. You know which one made it, but you should also know that it was tough to choose. I felt like they both did justice to this content. But in the end, one just stood out, you know?
This poem is very personal to me. What do you think of it? Kind words only, please.
And of course, before I go . . . how're you doing?
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Poetry[Featured on @WattpadPoetry on 21st May 2022] "My skin bleeds blood, but my heart bleeds words." - Vaishnavi. I write when I am alone and find it hard to deal with my emotions, whenever I feel trapped in the eye of an impetuous storm, and whenever I...
