Love Me Harder

Boy Really!

After School at the Hospital....

I was so pissed with Dwayne. Like for real how dare he really try to control me. Did anyone trip when he went and did them remixes with Kae? I mean I wasn't his girl then but still. Did I trip when they ended up on that fucking Island together? Nope. Do I trip when Kae call his phone? No I sure don't. Why? Because I know that that dick is mine and Dwayne knows if he even thinks about giving it away he's gonna lose it. Besides, I have no problem with Ash, we're actually friends.

"Girl smile! You're about to be a godmother!" Karmen said to me as we sat in the waiting room. Rayne was outside on the phone calling Miranda's parents to see where they were. Her husband was the one in the delivery room. Miranda had told Rayne and I awhile ago that she wanted both of us to be godmothers.

"I know I'm just so pissed at Dwayne for pulling that shit," I said shaking my head.

Look don't get too upset. I know Dwayne acted like more than a complete asshole, but he's jealous and skeptical. I mean do you really think that Jacob and Lea are fucking now?" she gave me this look like she didn't believe it.

"I really don't know and I could care less for real as long as she's not coming after Dwayne anymore," I said shrugging. "I don't plan on being best friends with any of them and I know me getting close with Jacob would be disrespectful to Dwayne, but I'm not about to be a suspicious and spiteful bitch either. And I'm not about to mess with my money just to keep Dwayne ego intact."

Karmen nodded. She knew what I was saying was true.

I pulled out my phone and pulled up my twitter app.

@Divalicious_Boss: Don't say you want an independent woman if you gonna try and track how she make her money

@Divalicious_Boss: If you love me you gotta trust me and trust that you're the only one that I want

I could tell Team Mckell had questions about what was going on. I got retweets on both tweets though. One tweet stood out though.

@Fame_QUEEN: @Divalicious_Boss: He knows what he's got boo, that insecurity is stuck in his head though cause he's not used to dealing with a REAL WOMAN

I couldn't help but smile. I made sure to follow her back and retweet her. I was about to put my phone away when I noticed another tweet in my mention.

@DwayneMckell: I do trust you and I do love you more than you'll ever know because you're my true heart @Divalicious_Boss

Looks like he was either twatching my ass or Team Mckell had put him onto my tweets. I closed down twitter. And sat back in my seat while we waited. It felt like forever was passing by. Leave it to Miranda my sister to take hours to push out a baby. Our parents showed up and so did her husband's family. Around 10:30, Miranda finally delivered a healthy baby boy. He was the most precious thing I ever seen.

After they cleaned him up, I had to take out my phone again

@Divalicious_Boss: Thanks to my boo @RandaInTheHouse I just welcomed my godson Isaiah Nicholas Hodge into the world.

I instagrammed it too. Suddenly I saw a mention.

@DwayneMckell: Only a matter of time before that's us boo

That of course sent my mentions out the roof. The last thing I wanted was for Team Mckell to think I was pregnant because I wasn't, though the way Dwayne and I had been fucking....yeah possibility.

We always went raw but I was on the birth control shot. I just shook my head with a smile and put the phone away.

The girls and I decided to give the new family some time alone. I was beyond tired anyway. I got in my car and decided to head home. When I got home I noticed that Dwayne car was in my driveway. I went inside, but didn't see him anywhere.

Baby?" I called as I walked up the steps.

I walked into my room and saw my bathroom light on. When I walked in, Dwayne was sitting on the edge of my Jacuzzi sized bath tub and it was filled with water and bubbles.

"What's all this?" I asked him.

"My I'm sorry moment. I didn't have a right to tell you not to be close to Jacob. You're smart and I know I can trust you, it's just him I don't trust," he said.

I walked over to him and he placed his hands on my waist. He was still sitting down so he pressed his head to my chest while I wrapped my arms around his neck.

"I know baby. I'm not saying I trust them completely, but I can't hold a grudge. It's not gonna do me or you any good. I'm gonna work with them, but I need your support on this. I was actually expecting it sense your name is attached to their project."

He looked up confused and then suddenly it was like a light bulb went off in his head. "The Kill?"

I nodded. "Damn I forgot I made Kae the head of that project. I did it so she'd have something to do with herself since she was always talking about fashion and designing and shit."

"Well I guess now she's ready to get serious about it."

He nodded. I looked at the bathtub and raised an eyebrow. "How'd you know I was going to come here and not go to your house?"

"Cause I know you," he said laughing. "So I've been sitting here filling and refilling the tub with hot water for the past hour."

"Awww my little baby got all romantic on me," I said laughing.

"Shut up and get your little ass in the tub," he said standing up.

I giggled and stripped down all my clothes. I slipped into the bathtub and I swear it was heaven. I just sat there and soaked thinking about everything. Maybe Dwayne was right, maybe I shouldn't do this whole business deal with Kae, Judi and Lea. But then again, I'd mainly be working with Kae, which is probably a bad thing in and of itself. I just couldn't be sure.

I mean....Dwaynewould obviously be connected to the project since it was going to be in line with his own clothing collection.
His would come out first, but still. No, what am I saying? I know Dwayne, I trust him, and I highly doubt Kae wants to get her ass dragged. I just won't trust them completely, but I'll go on with the business deal with them. I'll just have to keep my eye on them.

Once I could feel myself pruning up, I grabbed a towel and climbed out of the tub. I dried myself off and slipped on my silk robe before walking into my bedroom. Dwayne was already laying in the bed. He had my phone and I saw him looking at a picture of Isaiah. I climbed into bed with him and put my head down on his shoulder.

"Isn't he precious?" I asked him.

"Yeah.....I wanna have one. I meant what I said on twitter."

"Yeah thanks for that! Now half of Team Mckell thinks I'm pregnant," I said with a laugh.

"Well you might be."

"Nigga you know I'm on the shot for a reason."

"Yeah well....maybe you should go back for your next one next month."

I looked up at him and I could tell he was serious. "Baby, I'd love to have a family with you, but I'm not trying to rush into anything. We've only been in a serious relationship for 2 months."

But we've known each other since high school," he said. "It's not like we just met."

"Look...we're in a good place. I just don't want to complicate things too much. I'm not saying no, I'm just saying not right now. I'm not ready for that yet."

I watched his face hoping he wouldn't be too mad at me. He nodded. "I got you ma. I can wait. Besides it's already set in stone you gonna be my wife one day and the mother of my kid. I'm not worried."

I laughed. Damn I loved this man.