The Baker And The Queen Pin

Chapter 58:Together Again

~~~Maria

As I get up to make breakfast, I found myself, happy that he accepted me. I found myself happy that I would have him, I found myself happy that he loves me and accepts me for who I am. He knows who I am and that's what I wanted. It's then at that moment that I say, "I'm lucky to have a man like him."

I found myself, more and more ready for him, and then I think what am I going to do? Now that he's in my life, I'm going to have to think even more about the movies I make and the complications I bring but the first thing I need to do is to prep for a wedding. He proposed to me before we made love, I said yes, my body said yes and I let him stake his claim on my body. I let him fill my womb with my seed and I made love to him.

Just thinking about it now only drives me further and further into happiness. This man was my husband and he wanted me with all of my faults and everything else. I was happy, I wanted that man and I would gladly die for him. So he didn't want me to die for him, he wants me to live for myself. He wants me to be better than who I believe I am. 'But can you really be better?'
I hear my father's voice in the back of my head, a tear falls down my cheek as I think what have I done? I don't deserve to be happy. I don't deserve this so why does this all feel so right? I don't know 'Maria, are you okay?' my heart drops even further as I begin to turn around, and he sees my crying face. 'What's wrong my love?' as I see his caring eyes focused on me I begin to cry even further holding him as I say, "do you really believe I can be better?"

He held me tight as he says, 'yes, I may be selfish for wanting you, but I love you. I love you with all of my heart, and we may not be able to right the wrongs of the past but we can deal with the future together.' I cry, even harder as I say "is it possible that we can stand against it together?" His soft voice then says 'I will stand with you through hell and back.' I found myself, calming down as I began to hug him even tighter.

I realized that this man would stand with me no matter what. It's then that he kisses me and in that kiss, I feel safe. 'I will always love you and I will always help you weather any storm and I'll always try to protect you no matter what.'

~~~Booker

After I found myself, comforting Maria for a few hours, I found myself, questioning why I didn't comfort her more. I found myself, completely enthralled with this woman. No matter what, I would not allow myself to abandon her side again. I have to also find a way to help her come to terms with who she was as a person. I found myself, willing to do the best I could for her, and then I realized I needed to comfort her.

I needed to make her feel as good as she could but I also need to do my best. Things are going to get difficult from here on and I need to protect my children from that difficulty. I also need to prepare for Maria's dangerous lifestyle. Things could get dicey and I would like for things to be safer. Maria has agreed with me on those terms and Maria completely agreed on us having bodyguards. She also thinks that we could speed up the wedding and have a life insurance policy set up for everyone.

Maria doesn't want to take any risks and I understand that. I wonder, are we being foolish for wanting more? Are we foolish for wanting a break away from the status quo of our lives, a woman who constantly breaks the law with frequent murders, and death, and a single father, who walks the straight and narrow? When did things get this complicated? I remember when we were just holding each other last year this time, I remember when everything was simple.

That time has long passed, I knew it had passed and it was time for me to focus on her, it was time for me to make her my world but can I really do that? Can I really bring hope to this woman's world? I found myself, almost scared of the world and all of its dangers but then I remembered that I had weathered many dangers and I will still try my best. As I find myself calm, I found myself, getting ready to make us dinner.

Hours had gone by and Maria had finally calmed down. That was good, I wanted her to feel safer and I didn't know how to for a bit but she said my trying to love her was just enough and we both embraced each other for the time being. We had put our lives on pause to spend time together and then I heard her ask, 'Booker?' "Yes," I say, calmly. 'Do you think that I'm deserving of your love?' "Yes," I answer her, "I'll always be here as long as you're honest and can tell me what you're on your mind. I know we can protect each other and I know that you'll protect me no matter what."

It's then that she kisses me and says, 'Thank you for accepting me and all of my imperfections.' "I will always love you and accept you for you. I'm glad you were able to open your heart up to me again." It's then that she says, 'I wanted you to know that I wasn't as honest as I could have been in the beginning but everything I told you was the truth.' I say, "Yes, I know you're telling me the truth. I've known that the moment I decided to call you."

It's then that she says, 'What do you mean? Is there something you're not telling me?' I smile and say, "Has anyone ever told you, you always look guilty?" It was at that moment that she begins to bust out, laughing and I laughed with her as she says, 'Wait. You're not bluffing?' I smile and say, "No. You always look guilty as if you wanted to tell m the truth but couldn't." It was then that her eyes began to widen as she covers her mouth, 'And here I thought I was holding up the perfect poker face.'

"You were," I said to her, "All the way up until there would be some days where you just weren't yourself and you were distant. I thought it was because you were cheating on me, that's why I hired a private investigator. Then I slowly started to realize you weren't just distancing yourself from me because you wanted to, something was deeply affecting you." It was then that she smile and says, 'Thank you for noticing.' Then her eyes began to get sorrowful, "What's wrong, my love?"

It's then that she says in a sad voice, 'Would you like to get married in the next few days?' I almost didn't believe what she said and I didn't want to. At that moment, I couldn't muster an answer.

End of Chapter 58: Together Again