wash your hands.
germs stick.
you don't want hands covered in bacteria do you?
scruff.
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you must be reading this thinking i'm so stupid for creating this big plan but i have finally come to the conclusion that my life does not matter and me being gone out of everyone's lives would be a lot lot better.
you probably are thinking this is stupid but i don't care anymore.
i hate myself.
i hate the life i'm living.
so why not go start over?
genius arent i?
the date of the big plan: 07.05.22
essentials:
• hairbrush
• 2 spare sets of clothes
• money (£90 - from birthday)
• headphones
• snacks
• mr floppy (my teddy bunny that i've had since i was little, yes i know i'm 13)
• 2L bottle of water
• spare set of underwear and bra
now, for my big plan outfit i will be wearing something warm, i know it's may but it's still chilly.
black fluffy leggings, black trainers, white tee, checkered shirt and my beanie.
i wrote a note to my mother, i feel bad for leaving her but i can't stand to be me anymore.
the note to my mother:
dear mum,
i am truly sorry to leave you but i must.
my life needs to start over.
i can't stand to live like me anymore, i hate being me, i hate me.
i have left you £20 inside the envelope, treat yourself to that lovely dress you wanted in the shops the other day.
i want you to understand that i really, truly don't like my life anymore. i need a fresh start.
i don't want you to come looking for me.
i will write to you every day that goes by.
i love you and i hope you can understand why i am doing what i'm doing.
most importantly, DONT CALL THE POLICE!!!
goodbye and stay safe mum.
-brooky blood x
now your definitely thinking:
how on earth is she going to survive out there alone? she has no place to go and only has £90!
how's her life going to start over?
right here's your answer:
i have been researching.
there is a shelter.
now you see, i live in Manchester.
this shelter is in Leeds.
how am i getting there you ask?
train and bus!
i'm not that stupid you know!!!
the big plan (final):
- leave the note on the downstairs table in the lounge.
- leave the house at 11pm (MAKE SURE TO BRING BAG OF ESSENTIALS)
- jump on the train.
- train stops at Bradford.
- jump in the bus.
- bus stops at Leeds.
- walk to the shelter using google maps.
- stay there for a few weeks.
- get a job (this will be extremely hard to do since i'm 13 but i know some shops that will allow me to work there).
- save money up.
- find someone that will let me live with them.
- go to a new school in Leeds.
- live a happy life with my new family and new everything!!!
:)
i pray for this to actually work!
i have lots of hope in my heart that this will work. i've wrote the big plan down on some paper (i made a copy). i will leave the copy under my pillow and make sure to not forget it when i'm leaving.
you definitely think this is stupid but i don't care, i deserve a new happy life.
goodbye x
YOU ARE READING
#disappear
Mystery / Thrillerwhat if one day you finally decided enough was enough? what if you thought that being gone would be amazing? what if. what if? that's what we say all the time. "what if this?" "what if that?" god. when do we learn?
