Dark Thorns (A Deltarune fanfic)

Again

The quietness of the trash zone did not help the anxiety.
Spamton stood at the door. Just staring at it. He felt like he wasn't ready to open it. He wasn't ready to face Pink. To talk about what happened. To see him. Any of it.
Little did he know, Pink was feeling the same dread. After realizing his feelings for Spamton, Pink wished he could run and hide somewhere else. He knew Spamton had to come back sooner or later.
Both of their pulses began to quicken when Spamton started to turn the doorknob.
This wasn't going to be easy.

Slowly walking into the room, Spamton greeted Pink. "Hey. Pink."
"Hey." He didn't even lift his head to look at Spamton.
"I KNOW YOU'RE [so angry, you could explode] AT ME." Pink still didn't move. Spamton got closer. "I'M [terribly sorry for the inconvenience]. YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGIVE ME."
Pink sighed. "It's fine. Look, let's just forget about it. Okay?" Spamton almost considered it. It'd probably be a lot easier.

No. I can't hide away from him. Not again.

"I... [but wait! There's more!]."
"Huh?" Pink finally looked over at him.
"I HAVE SOME THINGS I WANT TO SAY."
"How about we leave it for another-"
"I STILL [[love]] [U]."
"Spamton, I..." Pink closed his eyes tightly.
"I KNOW WE [broke contract] WITH EACH OTHER."
"Please." He didn't want to hear it.
I can't do this again. Please don't.
"BUT PLEASE, GIVE ME ONE [Last Chance to buy!]. [That's all folks] I ASK." He tried to reach for Pink's hand, but Pink quickly stood up.
It almost looked like he was disgusted with him. "And why the hell would I do that? Because you love me again?" Pink laughed a little, but it was brittle. "Hah. Do you even remember those last few months? What you put me through?" He turned away. Looking at Spamton proved to be too painful for him. "Do you at least remember that night? The one where we had that big fight?"
"I..YEs."
How could I forget?
"I wanted to try and apologize. I thought to myself 'maybe I went a little overboard.' So I tried. To call you, visit you. Hell. I even thought about writing a goddamn letter." Pink had to stop for a moment. Otherwise, he'd feel like he would break down. "But you never answered. I would try and visit you, but either you weren't there or ,again, you wouldn't answer. And when I tried to go to Red, you know what he said to me?" Pink turned around to look at Spamton again. His face had gotten red. "He said that it was my fault. I pushed you away. That you fucking hated me." Pink's voice cracked. "I didn't want to believe him at first, but as time went on. The less I saw you. I thought he was right."
Spamton spoke up as soon as he said that. "NO! IT'S NOT! [Don't believe what you see on T.V.]. I NEVER [doctors hate him] YOU!" Were there times where he wasn't happy with Pink? Of course. But hate? No. He never hated him.
"So why didn't you talk to me? To any of us? The only one who saw you was Red and all he did was tell us how we were all terrible friends to you guys." Pink pleaded with Spamton. He wanted to know. After all this time, he had to know.
"I MADE MYSELF BUSY[busy]."
"Well, we knew that."
"I [made it myself] BUSY BECAUSE MIKE TOLD ME TO STAY BUSY."
"What?"
Again with Mike?
"HE ALS0 SAID THAT I SHOULDN'T [associate] WITH YOU GUYS ANYMORE. RED W4S FINE BECAUSE HE DIDN'T CARE HOW, HE WAS JUST [proud] I WAS A [Big Shot]. MIKE DIDN'T NEED TO [cut][Cut] HIM OFF." His glasses were going back and forth between color and static. The memories were making him glitch out. "I DID IT BECAUSE I WAS [made] TO BELIEVE THAT I DIDN'T NEED YOU [sponges] ANYMORE."
"What do you mean?"
"MIKE WOULD TELL ME WHAT TO DO[what to do~]. WHAT TO [say it isn't so]. AND WH0 TO BE WITH. I WAS JUST HIS LITTLE [[Puppet on a string]]."
"Spam..." Pink felt infuriated.
How much did Mike brainwash him?!
"I DID EVERYTHING HE TOLD ME [to do lists]."
"AND LOOK WHAT HAPPENED. MY VOICE ALL [hyperlink blocked]. MY FAME DOWN THE [drain][drain]]."
"BUT WORST OF ALL, I LOST YOU [My most valuable]."
"Spamton, I..." Hearing the truth, it made Pink's heart ache for him. He nearly reached out to comfort him.
He sounds like he went through hell.
...But so did I.

"No. Even still, I can't just forgive everything you did." He balled up his hands. "Because of you, I couldn't eat or sleep. I was barely functioning at work. No matter how much anyone tried to help, I just couldn't..." He took a deep breath. "I ended things because at that point, I felt like I was slowly dying. Thinking that maybe someday you'd come back, but... you never did." Pink sat back down against the wall. "Then you disappeared and I was in a whole different kind of pain. I felt so much guilt, thinking that it was somehow my fault."
"PINK, NO. [Don't think!] IT WAS-"
"I know," Pink interrupted. "I just couldn't help it at the time." He placed his hand against his face, feeling the area where he got punched. Feels like a lifetime ago. "It took me a long time. A really fucking long time to get myself back together again. I promised myself that I would never let it happen again." Pink pressed his knees against his chest. "That's why..."
Here it goes.
"That's why I'm so fucking scared."
"WHY?"
"I'm scared I'm going to break that promise."
"Pink?"
"Because I love you too."

Absolute silence.

"You. What?" Spamton's eyes widened. He almost couldn't believe it.
Pink lifted up his head slightly. "Don't act like you didn't hear me."
"YOU. Y0U. L0ve. me?" Spamton felt shocked and overjoyed. "Pink. I-" He tried to embrace him, but Pink lifted his arm up.
"Don't. That doesn't mean I want to get back together with you."
"Please. Pink. I promise. I won't. Hurt you. Again. Never again."
"How? How can you be so sure?" Spamton pondered for a moment. How was he going to prove it? Suddenly, he got an idea. Spamton quickly went over to one of the boxes he had in the room. It didn't take long for him to find what he was looking for. Going back over to Pink, Spamton held out his hand. It was his wedding ring.
"You kept it?" He was taken aback.
You kept yours too?
"WOULD NEVER [for sale] IT. NOT ON MY LIFE." Spamton sat down next to Pink.  "Always had it. Because. I. always. Loved you."
Staring at the ring, Pink let out a small laugh. He was still in awe.
You had it all this time.
"Ha. You know that doesn't answer my question."
"Pink. Please-" Before Spamton could say anything else, Pink grasped his hand.
"I guess I'll just have to trust you on that though."
After everything he has done for me, I think it's safe to say he's earned my trust. I want to trust him. So I will.
He smiled at him. "Hey." Pink pulled out his engagement ring. "Does this mean I always loved you too?"
Now it was Spamtons turn to be shocked. "YOU [2 for 1[[Specil]]?"
"I guess so."
The two of them looked at each other for a few moments before Spamton wrapped his arms around Pink. Holding onto him tightly. Pink did the same.
"Pink. I. missed you."
"Yeah." Pink felt tears coming down his face. "I missed you too, Spammy."

They didn't say it out loud, but they both thought the same thing.
I love you. I love you so much it hurts.

Pink didn't realize how long they had been holding onto each other until he tried to separate. Spamton had fallen asleep.
I guess you would be tired after all that practicing you did with the machine.
Not wanting to wake him, Pink stretched his leg out to nudge the blanket closer to them. It was the one that Spamton lent him when he first came to the shop. Once he draped it around them, Pink also started to get tired. Before closing his eyes, he gave Spamton a small kiss on the forehead.