Mason mount imagines

No Matter What

(Warnings! talks of being unable to get pregnant)

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From the very first night, you met Mason, you knew you wanted everything with him. Some people may think that it's extreme but you didn't care, he was everything you had been searching for and more. And as your relationship went on the feeling only got stronger every moment you spent together, so when 3 years passed and he got down on one knee in Mykonos, both of your families present, you didn't hesitate to say yes! This leads you to now... newly married with love of your life, living in a house you could only dream about as you both had your dream jobs, but something still felt like it was missing...

"I want a baby..." Mason sighed in your hair, hugging you closer to him as you laid on top of him listening to his heartbeat, your body froze as the words left his mouth "Huh?" "I want a baby." He repeated without hesitation "Just think about it... were happily married, live in this huge house which constantly feels bare. Imagine a little me or you running around here, calling us mummy & daddy" You could hear the smile in his voice as he continued to reminisce on his little fantasy "Bringing them to the matches and letting them bond with all the other children... seeing me lift trophies and there Mumma kill it with her own job. It would be a dream..."

It was that moment when you realized what was missing. Your eyes grew watery as the thought of you and Mason not being alone and having responsibility for someone else ran through your head. "Okay..." You whispered, not having the energy to speak any louder "Let's do it" Mason shot up at your words, taking you with him as you sat in his laps "Really!" He smiled, tucking a piece of hair out of your face "Cause if your not we can wait a little longer, I don't want to force you into everything..."

Pushing back down on the bed, you straddled his waist. Leaning down to peck his lips in between words "I. want. this." You mumbled against his lips, hands already grabbing the hem of his shirt "I want a baby with you." Mason couldn't help but smile at your words, letting out a happy laugh he pulled you down to him flipping you over so he was on top.

"I love you so much..." He whispered removing your T-shirt "I can't wait for this next chapter with you!"

"I love you more" You gushed, pecking his lips softly "You're going to be the best daddy in the world.."

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That night was 11 months ago, and after many more tries, there was still no sign of mini mount's arrival. Although you both tried your best to remain positive, deep down you couldn't help but feel deflated. Friends and family told you that it can take a while and you weren't expecting to fall pregnant straight away. But your heart didn't know how many more negative pregnancy tests and rushed quickies it could take. You knew it wasn't you or Mason as you both got tested just before you started trying however every time the little negative sign comes up you can't help but think it is all your fault... why wasn't it happening?

But for the last week, you started to get your hopes up, your body felt weirder than normal and you couldn't put your finger on it. It just didn't feel right. You were starting to feel sick in the morning and your boobs began to feel sorer. But the one thing that was raising faith the most was your period being late by 4 days...

You wanted to take a test badly but you didn't want to be disappointed, so you held back the feeling as best as you can, resisting the urge to go tell Mason not wanting to get his hopes up as well. He had been so strong throughout the whole thing despite his own sadness and disappointment, you didn't want to give him false hope.

You and Mason were spending the night cuddling on the sofa when it happened... the thing you had been dreading.

The second you felt the cramp in your tummy, your heart dropped. "I'll be right back..." You forced a smile to Mason, pecking his cheek before hopping off the couch hoping that he didn't notice the tears running down your cheeks. Making your way into the bathroom, you shut the door behind you, pulling out your period box as you already knew what to expect... and to your despair, you were right...

With clouded eyes, you sorted yourself out before sliding against the marbled walls. You didn't care at the moment as the tears and sobs escaped your body, your head tucked into your knees. You knew you shouldn't have gotten your hopes up and that it was your own fault for not taking the test before but truthfully you were scared... scared of this exact moment happening again.

Mason started to get worried as the minutes passed. "(Y/n)?" He called, running up the stairs straight to the bathroom as he knocked on the door "Sweetheart are you okay in there?" Putting his head against the door, his body froze as he heard your sobs. Without hesitation he pulled open the door, heart only breaking more at the sight in front of him... Your eyes were puffy and red, mascara tears running down your cheeks as your body shook with every sob. He had an idea what had happened but seeing the little box on the counter only confirmed it for him.

"Oh, sweetheart..." He sighed, tears coming into his own eyes as you looked up at him. "I am so sorry Mase" You cried, shaking your head "This is all my fault..."

Mason dropped down in front of you, immediately pulling you into his arms as your tears soaked his shirt. Your legs wrapped around his waist as he sat there on the cold floor with you "Baby what are you on about?" He cooed, lifting his head up to wipe away the tears "None of this your fault okay? It just isn't our time yet..."

Shaking your head rapidly you continued to let the tears fall "No.." You muttered to yourself "No... this is my fault. It's my body. I should be able to have a baby by now, we have tried so many times and I still can't do it.." Holding your cheeks in his palms, he pronounced his words softly and clearly "Baby, You have been tested... this is not your fault. If it makes you feel better we can get tested again but I promise you this is nothing to do with your body"

"Why do you even love me?" You asked, putting your hands over your face as you sobbed into your hands "I can't even make a baby for god sake! I thought this was it, Mase... I thought I had the symptoms, I really thought we did it.... How can you love me?" His heart shattered as he listened to your cries, only holding your tighter as your whimpers and questions echoed through the room "You listen to me right now..." He sniffled, trying to stop his own tears from falling "No matter what... no matter when or if we have a baby" Lifting your head from his chest, he pecked your lips gently "I will always love you..."

"Why?" You asked, voice shaky as you tried to stop the tears.

"Because you're my everything.." He smiled, intertwining your hands "See those rings on our hands?" He asked, looking down at your entwined hands, both of your rings glistening in the bathroom light "I made a promise that day that I will love you for better or for worst. Right now darling is our worst... but any day now we are going to get back to the best but we must stick together okay? No more hiding things or keeping these feelings to yourself. We are a team" Pecking your lips, he smiled "We are the mounts... and besides if there is anyone to blame for it's me. I mean it's my swimmers that are not making it in time!"

You couldn't help but giggle at his silly joke, causing Mason to smile pushing his forehead against yours "I love you (y/n)... & when we have our baby I will love them just as much. But right now we need to focus on ourselves okay?"

"Were not trying anymore?" You mumbled, heart sinking at the suggesion.

"I don't mean that honey..." Mason sighed, pecking your forehead "I just think we should stop putting so much pressure on ourselves. When it happens it happens. But right now I just want to enjoy making love to my wife without the pressure of it all. I want our babies to be made out of love not pressure and meaningless quickies... although I do enjoy them!" He quickly added, making a small smile appear on your lips "It's killing me to see you break apart like this & I know you're tired of it all too. So how about we just go back to being newlyweds having fun without protection yeah? and when mini mount wants to make an appearance we'll greet them with open arms and a whole bunch of love. But right now I want to give that all to you for however long that takes... how does that sound eh?"

Giving him a teary smile you nodded, dropping your head into the crook of his neck "I like the sound of that.." You sighed, feeling a rush of relief at the idea of not being under as much stress "I love you so much Mase" You mumbled against his neck, your message passing straight to his heart as butterflies erupted in his stomach like the first time you said it "Thank you for being my rock, I don't know what I'd do without you.."

"You never have to know.." He whispered into your hair, leaving small traces on your back "I'll love you till the very end darling... No matter what..."