Cut my scars deep
hope They will leave them be
They never believe me
it's just in your head
It's in my bones
you'll believe me when I'm dead
I just want your love and your praise
I never did anything wrong
I want to breathe without coughing up blood
I wanna speak without being filled with drugs I wanna be free without the feeling of being tied the fuck down
I just wanna be free
I just wanna be me
why is that so hard for you to understand
all I want to do is bleed
I want to feel that sensation leave
I wish I could scream
I wish I could cry
I wish I could say I wanted to die without having to give a reason why
why can't I just cut out my lungs whenever it hurts to breathe
why can't I just a rip out my fucking stomach every time it hurts to eat
I throw up every goddamn day
It gets kind of sickening
Watching the pound's fall
watching the hair hit the ground
Seeing the bones through the skin
Bruises on my chest
I feel like I'm dying
and I ran out of reasons to stay
cause I don't wanna be fucking anything
don't wanna live
don't wanna die
just wanna be dead
guess thats the reason why
I am still alive
No matter how badly I want to
I can't say goodbye
my mind is gone and I am already dead inside
