Knock On Wood (BoyxBoy)

chapter thirteen. edd.

I was completely stunned.

To hear that the only person I've had feelings for in quite some time returned my feelings was like hearing a sweet, child's laughter or news that you're about to be a parent; it was utterly and honestly the best and happiest moment in my life.

Now, I won't be alone.

Now, I can finally understand what a stable relationship feels like.

Mind you, it will be very difficult to keep quiet and make certain that nobody that we do not trust obtains the secret to me and Kevin's relationship, but I still want it to resolute well.

I realized, today, that this man stole my heart, and (hopefully) my first kiss will follow suit.

Though he, a true ladies man in the flesh, has probably had his fair share of kisses and whatnot, I have never thought of a relationship before this or even considered one so serious.

But how far will we go?

Would we steadily move forward into more intimate experiences or would Kevin wish to move quickly? Would he be reasonable? Would he take to mind my feelings in my first serious relationship? Or will his-ahem-desires get the better of him?

I try to reassure myself that I am thinking irrationally and that Kevin is a reasonable person, but what if his urges come earlier than mine and I find myself acting a fool and him not loving me anymore? Would he even do something like that?

Of course not, my mind shouts at me. Kevin is reasonable and would understand that you aren't ready for such things.

But even as my mind tries to reassure me, I still cannot help but feel uneasy on such a subject.

With his green eyes, I could feel him staring, and with his soft voice, I could hear him pleading. He was so desperate; so serious.

I thought he was kidding at first. Just a trick on the school dork, but seeing and hearing him say these things--acting the way he did--it made me realize that he was serious and meant everything.

And that is the only thing that matters to me right now is that he was telling the truth and really, truly likes me.