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𝐞𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧

ARABELLA

Phoebe let me stay the night in here room since Alex and Marvin shared a room and Finn wasn't open to sleeping on the floor or in the bathtub. Either way, I wasn't able to sleep much that night. I think I was startled at the events that happened. Why did I kiss Finn and why did I like it? Why did I find his voice attractive when he said the sentence. "I might as well do the same thing."

I couldn't get the thought out of my head that Finn is actually attractive. After years and years of hating him, I'm now starting to see that he's not that bad of a guy and the fact that I hated him was stupid and childish.

Anyways, now it's almost 10 o'clock and I was hanging out backstage while Finn and the others were preforming in front of the Saturn fans of Paris. They started preforming at 8:30.

They were doing pretty good. I haven't really been paying attention to what they play for obvious reasons, but now listening to it, they make really good music.

Once they finished playing the song they were currently preforming, Finn stopped and started to say something.

"Hey everyone, thanks for coming!" He started. "I have one last song to do before I leave and that song is dedicated to my gorgeous, gorgeous girlfriend!"

I cringed. Everyone in the audience started clapping and cheering as Finn turned to face me.

"Ari! Can you come out please?" He said as more people continued to cheer. I sighed and walked out. People continued to clap and cheer as I came to stand next to Finn.

"You're gonna sing with me and you're gonna enjoy it." He whispered sarcastically. I rolled my eyes. Finn smiled and made eye contact with Phoebe, Alex, and Marvin; telling them to start playing music.

They started to play the beginning of I Wanna be Yours by the arctic monkeys.

Finn looked me right in the eye and started to sing the first little bit.

"I wanna be your vacuum cleaner, breathing in your dust." I sighed and started singing along.

"I wanna be your Ford Cortina, I will never rust." Finn smiled before joining back in. "If you like your coffee hot, let me be your coffee pot. You call the shots babe, I just want wanna be yours." Finn smiled and me again but this time I smiled back.

"Secrets I have held in my heart, are harder to hide than I thought. Baby I just wanna be yours, I wanna be yours, I wanna be yours."

We continued to stare at each other's eyes deeply as we sang. We got closer and closer the further we got into the song. This was the first time I ever really stared into his eyes. They were a dark brown but the looked more amber when the light was reflecting off of them. I also noticed a little bit of green. He also had some small freckles around his nose. It was cute.

After a while of singing, it almost felt like no one was there, it was just me and Finn, together in an empty room where we weren't arguing or sulking in each other's presence, it was calm and peaceful and it just felt right. But soon, the song ended and everyone started clapping.

"Thanks for coming tonight!" Said Finn to the audience.

***

"I feel like we did amazing." Alex started as we ate pizza after leaving the concert. "Didn't we do amazing?"

"Yes, we did. As per usual." Said Phoebe.

"You guys did really good out there." I added.

"I know right." Said Finn.

"Never mind." I joked.

"Wow Finn." Alex sighed. "We got a compliment and you had to ruin it?"

"Yes." Finn said, sarcastically.

"I need fresh air." I told the others as I stood up. "I'll be right back."

I stepped outside and took a deep breath. I was upset that we were going to be leaving tomorrow morning for Venice, but I couldn't control it unfortunately.

I grabbed a cigarette out of my pocket and lit it before smoking it. I sighed as I breathed out the smoke.

"Are you okay?" I turned and saw Phoebe coming to stand next to me.

"Yeah." I answered her. There was a moment of silence before Phoebe spoke.

"You like Finn, don't you?" She asked. I quickly turned to face her.

"No absolutely not!" I said, wanting to believe it was true because deep down I couldn't tell.

"Oh please, you were basically undressing him with your eyes when he pulled you out on stage." Said Phoebe.

"Was it that obvious?" I asked.

"Yeah." She laughed. "So do you like him?"

"I honestly don't know." I sighed. "I have no idea if this fake dating thing is getting to me or if I really actually like him."

"What do you mean?"

"Before this, I hated Finn. I couldn't even look at him. Now, I'm kissing him and enjoying it and admiring him whenever I have the chance. I have no idea if I'm gaslighting myself into feeling this way or if it's coming to me naturally. I'm just confused." I explained.

Phoebe examined me for a minute before signing and smiling.

"I think you like him." She said.

"I think you're right." I sighed. We stood together in silence for a few minutes before the boys came out.

"Alright, we're leaving." Said Marvin as Alex and Finn stood next to him.

I quickly put out my cigarette before heading over to the others with Phoebe.

Maybe Phoebe was right. Maybe I do like Finn.