"ꜰᴜᴄᴋ ᴍᴇ ʀᴀᴜʟ" ɪ ᴡʜɪꜱᴘᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ᴀᴛ ʜɪᴍ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴍʏ ʟᴀꜱʜᴇꜱ.
Angel's life has been quite a roller coaster ride since she graduated with an exceptional degree from one of the finest schools in her hometown.
Securing employment proved to be ch...
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With trembling fingers I slowly opened the door and stepped in.
No broken item, no blood. I breathed out in relief and looked around for him.
"Raul" I called and checked the bathroom.
"Raul--- the door to the balcony was opened making me guess that he was there. I went out and saw him resting his elbows on the rails, his eyes trained on the dark sky.
I went to stand beside him and slowly rested my palm on the bulging muscles of his arm yet he didn't move an inch.
"I won't say I understand how you feel Raul cause I don't. I know it's hard for you to look at him and not think of all he did to you but listen to me Raul, don't be hard on yourself, don't let anger and hatred consume you cause if you do you'll never be happy no matter how hard you try to be Raul and I want you to be happy and I'm very sure our baby wants her papa to be happy too. Won't you do that for us?" Tears streamed down my face and he finally looked at me but with a blank look.
It'll take a lot more to get him to speak or show an emotion at least.
"Raul" I took his hand and caressed his knuckles with my thumb.
"Just do this, I'm not asking you to move on like nothing happened but just give him a chance to prove that he is sorry and he's worthy of your forgiveness. If you think being angry and holding what he did to you against him is the best solution trust me it isn't and you'll never have peace of mind. If he isn't sorry and if he didn't love you he won't be feeling guilty for all he did, he won't come back to make amends and if you're going to be angry at him it means you don't love me as you said" I intentionally sounded sad.
He had a confused look on his face.
"How can you say---
"Yes Raul that's how I see it. If you're still angry with him for taking those people from you, it means somewhere deep down you still want one of them and if that hadn't happened you'll still want to spend your life with them'' I looked away from him and for some reasons I felt that way too.
"Angel" he drawed and caged me into his arms.
"That's not it, I'm happy all those things happened else i wouldn't have met you, I won't be complete right now if my past didn't happen. I'm not angry at Nickolai for taking them away from me and if you ask me I won't put all the blame on him, if Alfreda, Claretta or Catalina really liked me as they claimed then they wouldn't have had thoughts of sleeping with my brother and that's one of the things that drew me towards you tesoro"
I gave him a quizzical look.
"Despite how much you tried holding your feelings and desires i could still see how much you wanted me through your eyes. When I left for Paris and I discovered Nickolai was in LA I almost lost my shit cause i thought you were going to give in to him, i thought you were going to choose him cause he is the single one but you proved me wrong, you decided to be called names just to be with me. You chose me out of every other qualified men out there and that alone is enough for me to love you forever tesoro. I'm not angry at the fact he is the man they cheated on me with and he slept with them despite knowing I was in a relationship, I just need a valid answer to why he did it" the pain and coldness in his eyes returned.
