Anxiety contaminated my body as I perched gingerly on the wooden bench beside the cliffs edge. I wasn't sure if it's because Reece wouldn't be joining me today or if it was the same unsettling sensation that I had gained from yesterdays chats. I plugged in my earphones, blocking out the world in attempts to calm myself, I'd recently gotten into Lany, the band Reece had introduced me to, I let the piano chords bleed into my ears as their song 'Malibu Nights' began.
There's no reason, there's no rhyme
I found myself blindsided by
A feeling that I've never known
I'm dealing with it on my own
Phone is quiet, walls are bare
"I take it he's told you," a voiced boomed from beside me, I took out my headphones and almost flinched at the sight of the person beside me. I was too scared to speak, my breath caught inside my throat. That feeling that I had was obviously warning me for this moment I was confronting right now.
"Lara," I managed to squeak out like a mouse, I felt as small as one too. My mind went back to the evening at the pub where Reece told me that I had to pretend I was bigger than this and to prove to her I was finished letting this situation occupy the majority of my mind, Lara could tell that she still held authority over from me, I was showing no strength at all.
"So he hasn't?" She confirmed and I gulped hard, I had no clue what she was talking about.
"You and Zac?" I asked completely dumbfounded with what was going on.
"Maybe I should get him so he can tell you the truth himself, you probably don't believe anything I have to say anymore," she said with confidence and it was true, I also couldn't quite fathom that she was sat beside me and her hands weren't wrapped around my neck or her nails weren't digging in to my skin.
"I don't understand," I stuttered, looking over at her for some clarity, her grey eyes pierced through me, she pursed her lips, as if she was scanning me and was asking herself why she was even bothering being here with me right now. Her false nails clattered against the glass screen of her phone and she held it up to her right side, the side furthest from me. I looked down at my phone, my mind scurrying with how I could get myself out of this situation and who I could message to get me out of here most quickly.
I craved Reece right now, I knew he'd tell me exactly what I wanted, he'd hold on to my clammy hands and squeeze them reassuringly, but I was giving him space and I didn't want to fall at the first hurdle, I was capable without him and I just wanted him to feel this same emptiness, I wanted him to need me desperately.
"Babe, come to the beach," she spoke, licking her lips. "yeah she's at the spot" was the last thing she said before she hung up.
I stood up abruptly and began walking, I didn't have time for this, we didn't have to pretend that we were the biggest fans of one another, I was older and more mature to get myself out of uncomfortable situations. I placed my headphones back in and began to play the same song I was forced to pause because of her.
"Wait!" She shouted out, but I ignored her comment, she couldn't say anything to make me stay, not even an apology would make me pause in my steps, but I don't think she was capable of saying the word sorry. "it's Reece,"
I paused and looked over at her, was that who she was calling on the phone? Is that why she said 'she's at the spot,' she knew more than she was letting on and my heart was beating so loudly that I'm surprised the cliff was cracking from beneath my feet.
"What are you doing to him?" I could feel the anger in me boiling and reaching boiling point, I wanted to be the one with my hands around her neck, but I couldn't even move one foot in front of the other.
Before she could even answer, I felt a breeze walk past me, he didn't even look at me and that's what hurt the most. I didn't even want to know what was coming next.
I glared over at him in complete and utter disbelief , my head shaking frantically with all the adrenaline bubbling up inside of me. I wanted him to speak, but his face oozed in guilt.
I was stood in the eye of a hurricane, a hurricane of emotions, every single one hitting my harder than the last. I wanted to fall to the ground, to get sucked up in the hurricane and taken away from the situation. I wanted to scream for help, this was like one of those nightmares where you were trapped and no matter how hard you fought it, you couldn't escape. How could a place so sacred to me, mould into something so bitter, if anything it was selfish and I'd expected better from Reece.
I couldn't bare the sight before me, the way Reece was sat so easily beside my declared nemesis and the way she sat beside with him a smirk plastered on her lips, her eyelashes fluttering at me as if she was asking for forgiveness. I turned my back on them, something they so effortlessly did to me, and headed for my car, the sad thing is, Reece just let me walk away from him and like I had said before, he just didn't care.
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beach//reece bibby
Romance"You're like a daisy; you've been trod on and become so closed up with every gloomy day that passes, you need to focus on the brighter ones so you can bloom," he spoke as he twiddled a daisy between his fingers. "A daisy?" I questioned, my voice hoa...
