the sky was blue, but blue as in a lonely blue, it lacked clouds or any mood, it was just neutral. I could learn a few things from the sky today, I would love to be clear headed and have my mood levels feeling neutral too. I admired the scenery from the windscreen of my mini, I didn't want to ruin a sacred place with the harsh words and negative energy that Reece and I could potentially bring. Instead, I invited him to my car, maybe a worse option due to the close proximity, but this chat was needed.
We gave each other a weeks space, but after our last time apart, he came back with a mark on his neck, so I didn't expect him to come in to the car completely innocent.
He tapped lightly on the window, wearing his cream knitted jumper and bomber jacket with the tartan inside. I unlocked my door and welcomed him inside, we exchanged a quiet hello to one another. I looked at him, waiting for the word vomit and excuses he was about to give me, he inhaled and placed his hands on his knees, thinking of how to start his sob story.
"you know I told you when I first came here I had no one," I nodded, he told me this story maybe a week ago and it was still just as hard to hear. "I didn't know Lara knew you so deeply," he began but I frowned at his choice of words, I never let Lara get half as close as I allowed Reece.
"she didn't know me deeply, she didn't know as much as you do," I clarified but Reece just gave me a vacant look, I wish I hadn't interrupted him.
"I guess I was curious, worried about you and why you were alone and so close to the cliff, she told me about you but not the nice stuff. I chose to ignore her statements and figure you out for myself," I again grimaced at his choice of words, figuring me out sounds as if I've got some unresolved issues that needed ironing out and that he was going to be wearing a cape and magically save me from them. It was partly true but the harshness of his words didn't make me appreciate what he was saying. "I don't want to say I was two timing either of you, it was mutual and nothing romantic happened from either of you, at least for the first part. My feelings for Lara were a little stronger because I knew her for a longer, we started getting involved with one another," he breathed, but I was starting to wonder when I took spotlight in this anecdote of his. It was uncomfortable to hear him talk of Lara this fondly, and to imagine his lips pressed against hers made my skin itch with agitation. "when she saw us together at the shack that's when she suggested that I mess around with you a bit, but I couldn't, I'm not like that, I saw the evil streak in her,"
"and I guess when I told you about her, that didn't help at all," I muttered and Reece shrugged.
"You were the only person who had told me about her, I didn't know anything about her truly. I'd already invited her to open mic night but then I got distant from her, I didn't want to see someone who thrived off of other peoples insecurities. I guess she got the message, she reached out a few times and I got a really angry message from her the day after the party," he continued to explain. I was starting to believe Reece, what did he gain from lying to me? He didn't have a gang of mates that were cheering him on for breaking my heart, he didn't have any expectations to live up to down here. He was new and just trying to fit it, unfortunately he picked the wrong girl to make the first move with.
"but what about that mark Reece?" I sighed, the most recent encounter of all and I had already tired myself out from overthinking every detail about it, whatever he was about to said, I had already prepared myself for it.
"she wouldn't stop with the messages Shiloh, I had to go over to completely draw the line under it all. She cried and I felt bad so I stayed with her, I didn't like the guiltiness I felt whilst I watched her cry. Her emotions ran high and she kissed me but I kept pushing her away-"
"it takes more than a kiss to create a mark," I interrupted him, this was the only thing he said that was the cloudiest of all. It didn't make sense, and from Reece's extended silence I could only imagine that more happened on that night but he wasn't willing to let on.
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beach//reece bibby
Любовные романы"You're like a daisy; you've been trod on and become so closed up with every gloomy day that passes, you need to focus on the brighter ones so you can bloom," he spoke as he twiddled a daisy between his fingers. "A daisy?" I questioned, my voice hoa...
