Never should have happened

Live in the now

*Liam's POV*

I was so upset I'd hurt her, I didn't think words could ever be enough to apologise for what I'd done. She was breathing so unevenly, I knew she was crying. And I knew she was thinking about something from a long time ago. We all had our dark past. And we never questioned it. For all I knew, she'd killed someone. But we tried to live in the now, not focusing on our mistakes, or our past. I stood up so suddenly, she nearly fell on the floor. "Living in the now." I started to walk out of our room. I could hear her half laugh from our bedroom, but I wasn't turning back. I had a plan for her, for us. And it was going to be perfect. I had dreamt about this moment, and I wanted it to be exactly the same.

It was just like every other day, I woke up. And dragged myself to the kitchen. I ate breakfast and got ready for school. I hated the fact I had to walk, but I didn't have the money to buy a car. At least it wasn't far from my aunties to school. That's what I get for being lazy. For spending all my time in a dark room gaming, rather than getting a job. But it didn't matter to much, I liked the walk, despite the cold. I like having time to myself, time to think. Ever since I was younger I'd always been a bit different to everyone else. Not as happy, not as social, but I was content. One of my better friends was a girl named Ryley. She was pretty cool, a bit over eccentric, but she made good company. She did have a few issues though, after her parents split, she took it to heart. She blamed herself, even though it wasn't her fault. And she turned to the darker side of life for comfort. She unlike myself, liked to party. Ryley, she like to drink, and she got into drugs. She wouldn't do anything wrong at school, but after the final bell went, it was a different story.

I always tried to stop her going off with them guys, but no matter what I said, she always went. But today is different, she doesn't even acknowledge me. No matter what was happening, we would always speak. At least for a moment. But she was gone. Before the bell. And I was worried. I got a call from Meg. And I dreaded the words she was about to say. "I'm at the hospital, I found Ryley, someone dropped her at the corner of my street, she wasn't breathing." I could feel my heart beating so fast, I was sure my chest was going to explode. I ran to the hospital, lucky it was only five minutes from school. I was greeted by the worst thing I've ever seen.

Everyone was crying, standing around holding eachother, I knew she was dead. But I remembered what she had always told me. That we had to do what was best for us. "Live in the now" she'd always laugh as she'd take a drink, or go with a boy. I held onto that statement forever. I knew it might come in handy in the future. I was excited for the future. But I was scared, because now I was facing it alone. I'd lost one of my closest friends, and I didn't know what I'd do without her. But I had to hold onto her memory, and honour it. Live in the now Liam, do what is best for you.