Never should have happened

The boys

*Liam's POV*

"It's perfect." I sighed to myself looking through the window. I knew I could never afford that, but it was perfect and gorgeous, just like Kate was. The necklace was gorgeous, it had an emerald in the pendant, and a long gold chain. It looked like the chain her mother used to have, and she always loved that necklace. Losing her mother was hard on her, and I knew what it was like to not have a mum. And she couldn't really turn to her dad they were never close. And it hurt to see her with almost no one left.

I kept walking, not knowing where I was going anymore. The city was busy with life, and I felt so empty. So alone. I was surrounded by people. But not one person knew me. I decided to head down to the river. I liked to walk along it, to clear my mind. I never used to, but one day Kate took my down to the park, and decided we would walk by the river, until we couldn't walk anymore. We walked for hours, I was even carrying her at some points, until we gave up and laid down in the middle of the path. "Look at the clouds, look how big and beautiful they are." She giggled as she spoke, and her voice was raspy from lack of air. Those were the type of things I loved about her, how she would be so random. Her craziness was her most important quality. Who wants to be normal when you can be extraordinary?

I'd always been a firm believer that being normal was boring. My friends weren't normal. My family definitely weren't normal. And I was not normal. I'd grown up, talking in my sleep, or not sleeping at all. Staying in my room alone, rather than playing outside with the other boys. I didn't grow up with a dad who played catch with me, and after my mum left me, I had to rely on my aunty to teach me the ways of life. My aunty was nice, don't get me wrong, but she couldn't replace my parents. Everything I learnt about how guys acted, I learnt from Tom and Michael. They were my best friends. They brought me our of my little shy shell, and introduced me to people like Dean. I miss my friends. I spend almost all of my time with Kate now, and I'm not complaining I love her, but I never really got to see other people.

From Liam
To Kate:
I'm going to catch up with the boys. I'll be home before ten.

From Kate
To Liam:
I'm in Williamstown with Meg and Brianna. See you at ten. xx

It was weird, I didn't say I loved her, and neither did she. I decided not out any thought into it, I didn't need to constantly be reminded I was loved. I would be fine. I didn't need her love every second of the day. I could live without her.

"Mate, you can't live without her." Tom said loudly between gulps of his drink. "He's right Liam, you don't know how to life without that girl. She keeps you alive." Michael agreed. It annoyed me, but I knew they were right, I needed Kate. I didn't even know how to survive without her. We'd been together for over five years. And lived together for three. She bought the groceries, paid the bills and organised basically everything. I needed her help just to survive for one week. "I don't know, I could probably survive without her." I lied, I knew I couldn't. "Pfff, what ever mate. She could leave you tomorrow and there would nothing you could do to stop her." Tom joked, but his words stun like lemon juice in a cut. What if she did actually leave me? What would I do with myself?

I was distracted the whole night. It didn't matter what we were talking about, sports, tv shows or work, I couldn't concentrate. What if she didn't want to stay together? I'd never thought about it this much. But I always held her back. I didn't like going to parties, or going out every night. She loved to be the life of the party. Being with me stopped her from seeing some of her old friends, like Isabelle, I knew she hadn't seen her for such a long time. I was glad she was out with her friends, I'd always Liked Meg and Brianna. Meg even knew about my plan to propose to her at the end of the year. I'd been saving the money for ages, and had only told Meg and my aunty.

"Enough is enough," I said loudly shutting up Tom and Michael mid-sentence, "I'm going to propose." They just stared at me, dumbfounded. Then slowly, their mouths began to crinkle into a smile, and slowly they started to laugh. It would have been about ten seconds, but it felt like hours, so many slow and painful hours. "What? Really?" They continued to laugh. But slowly they stopped, thank god, I couldn't deal with their painful laughter. "Congratulations mate, I'm so proud of you." Both of them said in unison. I was so relieved that they knew. Finally I had someone to talk to, that wasn't meg, she was a lovely girl, but she was still a girl and wanted me to propose on a Ferris wheel at sunset on a beach while doves were released and all that fancy stuff.

I wanted it to be simple, I just want her to say yes, and accept me as I am. I wanted to be with her, but I didn't know if I wanted to get married. And I knew for sure that Kate did, she always told me she wanted to have a big house and kids one day. I knew being with me was already difficult for her, she never wanted to be in a relationship, that hadn't changed much in the five years we'd been together. But we were made for each other. And I wanted to get married. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. And I wanted her, to want the same thing.