cameras and memories | dream

018 ; it's due.

Our photography assignment is due today. Last night I pulled an all-nighter and finished Clay and I's board. "Honey, That boy Clayton is at the door." my mum knocks on my door "alright, i'll be there soon." I mumble grabbing my school bag, tossing it over my shoulder and grabbing the final board.

I jog downstairs to see Clay smiling at me "smile at me and I'll punch every single tooth out of your mouth." I point to him sternly "yes ma'am" he says wiping the smile off his face.

"bye mum, bye dad." I yell before closing the door "how is it looking?" clay asks me "better than what you could've done." I say jokingly as he scoffs "I don't doubt it miss perfectionist." he says driving off towards school.

We both get out of the same car and my eyes land on Brie who just gives me a gentle smile, I hope she wasn't mad at me for being as distant as I have been recently. It's not that I don't love her, I've just been... preoccupied with Clay.

"ill talk with you soon, here you hold this." I say handing Clay the board and he nods, walking off to Nick and George as I walk off to Brie.

"hey brie, i wanna talk." i say awkwardly "hey whats up?" she says hugging me "I just want to apologise for being absent, you know i love you and i just have been so busy with photography and how it was with Clay. I didn't mean to you know leave you out of anything." I explain to her "you don't need to explain I know how you get when it comes to Clayton." she glares at him talking to his friends.

"He seems calmer since that fight." she says looking back at me "really?" i turn back to catch a quick glance at him but he was already looking at me and I clear my throat turning back to face Brie "I hadn't noticed" i smile to her, her jaw immediately drops as she tries to put two and two together.

"did you two?... you know." she whispers to me "what? no thats fucking horrific." I say disgusted at the fact she even thought that, i guess it wasn't all bad to think he and I fucked. We did kiss.

"there's no way." she says "im being serious, i don't think i'd ever fuck that." i laugh causing her to give me a serious look "if it means anything to you, you seem happier. whether you did or didn't." she says "we didn't" I giggle and she teases me "alright alright, calm down." I laugh at her.

"shoot they're coming" Brie whispers "what? no they can't thi-" "Girls" Clay says greeting us along with George and Nick who just gently nod at us "Hi" I say, my cheeks going red as I immediately look down at the concrete, tapping my foot nervously against the pavement.

"clay told us how you pulled an all-nighter to finish your project." George spoke up to ease the silence "oh uh yeah right, well I wasn't going to fail because he doesn't know how to organise." I speak up and everyone laughs except for Clay who was rolling his eyes at me.

"i can be organised." he shrugs "so that's why you asked me to do it. ok." I laugh and Brie nudges Clay gently.

I noticed something with them, something that was different. They got along aswell. "what's with you two?" I say looking between Clay and Brie. I look over to Nick who gives me a nervous look, what the fuck have they not told me?

"hello?" I say confused "we might have..." Brie says and Clay looks at her causing her to stop talking. "what the fuck" I say to them "what did they do?" I turn to George, hoping he'd break but he just stares at Nick.

"you two." I turn to Clay and Brie once more. Noticing the closeness, how she leant closer to him than she did to me. The way she nervously gripped the straps of her bag. "you filthy backstabbing sons of bitches." I say jabbing Brie to the face.

Brie stumbles and now I understand why Brie called me, she wanted to see if I would actually help him rather than defend him. She must've been surprised that I was annoyed at both sides.

"no y/n" Clay grabs me and I turn to slap him. "after this project, I want nothing to do with you or her. you understand." I whisper to him angrily, he stares into my eyes one last time and I walk off.

Storming down the hallway and into the girl's restrooms. Going into a stall and I now remember what the feeling was, that feeling in my stomach. It was to remind myself of the time where he hurt me, or when I thought he hurt me the most. Seems as though I was wrong.

That's when the tears started to well up in my eyes, bursting out when they finally couldn't hold themselves in for much longer. I burst into tears. How could I have been so fucking blind and stupid.

This whole time I thought I was the one growing a thing with him but he was growing something with her once again using me. So I meant absolutely nothing to him, that kiss, that second kiss. Meant nothing to him.

I hope this isnt payback for the time I told him he meant nothing to me, because if it was then it hurt infinitely more than before. I bring my hands up to my cheeks trying to dry them off before the bell goes, but as I wipe my eyes the bell rings. Fuck. Im going to be late.