My Life Be Like : Part 2 : Atlanta Edition..

Chapter 39 -

London's POV -

I walked down the stairs and went into the kitchen to get myself a glass of water. I walked in the living room and saw Cameron laying on the couch messing with his phone. I looked at him and he looked back at me and sighed.

"Come here." He said sitting up, patting the couch.

I walked over and sat down on the couch. Cameron grabbed the drink out of my hands and sat it on the table. He then grabbed my hands and looked me in the eyes.

"Look, this ain't gon' be easy." He began to avoid my gaze.

"Look at me." I mumbled. He looked back in my eyes. "What is it ?" I asked.

"I'm real nervous to tell you this." He said.

I felt his palms become sweaty. I started to become nervous.

"W-what is it, Cameron ? Just tell me. I can handle it." I said, knowing what he says I probably won't be able to handle. My heart is literally thumping out my chest.

"London.." He whispered.

"Yes ?"

"I'm calling off the wedding.." He said.

"What ?" I furrowed up my eyebrows.

"I'm sorry."

"W-why ?" My voice cracked.

"I can't marry you, if I don't know myself."

"What do you mean ?"

"How do I know who I am ? I never had a father figure to teach me how to be a man. So what am I ?"

"Babe, you taught yourself how to be a man.. Look at you, your a great father, you have a high paying job, y-"

"I don't want to get married until I meet him." He said.

"Oh.." I looked down. I felt my eyes tear up.

"Tell me your not mad." He said.

"I'm not." I blinked and tears began to roll down my cheeks.

"London.." He tried to lift my chin but I moved his hand.

I got up and walked up the steps. It probably looked like I was running because I didn't want him to see me crying.

"Baby !" He called after me.

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Cameron's POV -

"Baby !" I chased after her.

I walked in the room and she was under the covers. I climbed on top of her and pulled them off her face.

"Babe, tell me your not mad." I said.

"I'm not. I'm just really disappointed right now." She said while wiping tears that were running down her face.

"Why tell me what's up."

"Because you called off the wedding. You know your dad is out there somewhere, mine isn't. He's dead & I don't remember a single thing about him. But I'm willing to marry you. And that's why I'm so upset." She let off her chest.

"Ba-"

"And the fact that I was so excited to marry you & now its taken from me it's just not fair." Seh cried even more.

"Stop it, London. Come here." I said pulling her into my chest letting her cry.

"I'm so scared to lose you, because I don't want Faithe to grow up with one parent. That's why I get so crazy sometimes." She let it all out.

"Baby, I'm here for you. Faithe will never go without a father, but me, I'm still young. I want to find out who he is, and that's for me. And London we'll get married one day, but my hearts telling me to wait. I'm sorry." I kissed the top of her head.

She cried even harder. Out of all the fights London and I have ever had, I've never seen her cry like this before. It sucks knowing I'm the one who did it to her.

"I don't even have parents Cameron. Do you know how that feels. The only people I have are your and Faithe. If you guys weren't here, I don't think I'd be here right now." She said moving from my arms and looking in my eyes.

 

Her eyes were bloodshot red.

"Babe. Please don't talk like that."

"When you guys left, I didn't know if I still wanted to live. I was broken." She mu mumbled.

"Bae, please. Your scaring the fuck out of me. Don't talk like that. I'm right here baby." I rubbed her back.

Out of nowhere I felt tears start to drip from my cheeks. I don't know what I'd do without London in my life. I'd be nowhere. It breaks my heart to know she felt this way, because of me.

 

London continued to cry. Tonight, I literally rocked London as she cried herself to sleep. I think theres more to it than me calling off the wedding. I think she's beem through a lot these few months and she's finally letting it out.

"I love you so much." I whispered as I laid her down. I know she was sleeping and couldn t hear me but still.

I kissed her forehead gently and cuddled up behind her. Her body was cold & she was shivering. I wrapped my arms around her tight and slowly started to drift off.  

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I feel so bad for London and Cam. But comment what you think below. And I think I'll be starting a new story soon ! So stay alert for casting calls !!! Love ya , mwahhhhh;)