My Life Be Like : Part 2 : Atlanta Edition..

Chapter 43 -

London's POV -

"Who was you with London Nicole ?" He got in my face.

"Your not my fucking father." I said.

"London."

"I wasn't with nobody damn ! I left the house with this hickie ! Its from you. I left, when to the studio, ate lunch, grabbed a few drinks, went back to the studio and came home." I looked at him.

"For real ?" He asked me.

"Yes baby, I would never do anything to hurt you. Now come here." I pulled his face to mine and kissed him.

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Cameron's POV -

"Babe. I'm sorry for accusing you." I said pulling away from the kiss.

"It's okay. Just don't get like that again. You were all mad for nothing." She looked me in the eyes.

"I know. I should trust you more."

"Mhm." She looked at me.

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London's POV -

"What you thinkin' ?" He asked me.

"Nothin' babe."

"Did you do somethin' ?" He asked.

"No, didn't you just say you should trust me more ?" I asked him.

"Yeah bu-." Cameron didn't finished the sentence.

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                   I woke up from the dream I had about Michael. I can't believe I dreamt about him. Kissing me, dancing with me, telling me I was gorgeous. It was so weird, but it felt so real..

(A/N.. London's not that dumb.. She wouldn't fuck it up with Cameron.. AGAIN.)

                        I looked over at Cam. He was sleeping but had this tired, drained look on his face. I walked in the bathroom and was shocked when I saw myself. My eyes were red and puffy. I lost it after Cameron told me he didn't want to get married anymore.

                        It's not like I felt that I was losing him, it was just me letting go of everything I've been holding in. To be honest, after thinking about it, I understand where Cameron was coming from and why he didn't think marriage was the right idea for right now. But at the time, I just felt like everything hit me. Guilt from cheating on Cam, guilt of being a bad mom, guilt of losing the baby, not having a mother or a father & much more. Everybody has their breaking point, and last night I just so happened to have reached mine. I need to learn to become stronger and face my problems, rather than smoking or drinking, & crying. I know it sounds weird but after having that dream about Tyga I feel like I need to change. Trust me. I want to become a better mother to my child, and a better girlfriend to my boyfriend. I know Cameron deserves better than me, but I'm not letting him find someone else, so he'll just get the better version of me.

"London.. Lo !" Cameron waved his hands in front of the mirror.

"What ?" I looked at him.

"You been standing there looking in the mirror for a long ass time now."

"Oh, ha." I fake laughed.