My Life Be Like : Part 2 : Atlanta Edition..

Chapter 11 -

Cameron's POV -

"Do you want to do this ?" I asked her rubbing her thigh.

                       She looked at me for a few seconds as if she was deciding.

".. Actually, no. We need to wait until we have a relationship again, a good one." She looked me in the eyes.

"Aight. I can respect that." I kissed her cheek and climbed off her.

"Well, what do you want to do now ?"

"Just chill I guess. We could watch t.v."

"Okay."

                       She cuddled up to me and we began to watch t.v.

"Cameron."

"Yeah ?"

"Why'd you come back ?" She asked.

"I didn't like the feeling of being alone."

"Oh."

"Does it feel awkward being here with me ?"  I asked.

"Kind of. I didn't think you'd come back, especially after yesterday."

"You opened my eyes to a lot."

"Really ?"

"Yeah. I don't want to be without you, and to see you giving up for good hurt me, forreal." I glanced down at her.

"I just felt like I apologized so many times and you just gave up. So I did too. But I am sorry. I only love you, with him there's no excuse, so I'm not going to make up one. Just know that I am sorry, and I'll always regret it." She looked at me.

"I forgive you. It's whatever, in the past."

"I don't feel like I deserve you Cameron.." She sighed.

"Stop."

"Why are you here ? I don't get it."

"Because I have a family I need to take care of." I said.

                 She stood up.

"I don't understand. I did you so wrong, but your still here." She started pacing.

"London, stop it."

"You don't love me, do you ?" She asked putting her hands on her forehead.

                                I looked at her like she was crazy, because she damn sure is acting like it.

"London, sit down ! Your being paranoid !"

"You don't.." She shook her head.

"What is wrong with you ? Calm down."

"I'm so sorry, Cam. I wish it never happened." She said.

"Stop." I said.

"We were perfect, until I had to fuck it up." She sat down on the floor.

"Stop it, damn !" I exclaimed.

                 She got up and left the room. I followed after her. She walked into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of vodka. She began to drink straight from the bottle.

"I just want to be trusted." She took another drink.

"London, cut it out !" I yelled trying to take the bottle.

                        She held onto it tighter and slid down the wall.

"Baby, what's wrong ?" I kneeled in front of her.

"I don't deserve you. Your a great father, and a great person. I'm not good enough.. I never was." She said beginning to cry.

"Where is this coming from ?" I asked taking the bottle from her.

"I've always felt like this." She shook her head.

                      I leaned over and hugged her.

"Your just overwhelmed right now. You need to take a breath, London. Calm down." I pulled back and wiped her tears.

"Your right." She took a deep breath and looked up. I grabbed her hand and stood her up.

"You straight ?" I asked.

"..yes."

                        I don't know what just happened, but I know London. And I know that something is going on with her that I don't know about. I need to figure it out, before it gets serious..
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1) What do you think is wrong with London ?

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