okay so well, i went on 2 dates.
1st one was... I don't even remember when, it wasn't good, the guy was an idiot and i just went for the sake of it. red flags in the guy:
1. didn't pick me up.Took me to a fucking local market????
2. dirt in his nails.
3. constantly talked abt multiple exes.
4. didn't even offered to drop me off even tho we were going in same direction.
Now Date: November 17, 2022
THE NEXT GUY. THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.
MY (ALMOST) BOYFRIEND.
We went to the science museum 😭 i love museums btw. Held my hand the whole time, picked me up and dropped me off.
I've been resisting the urge to say ily or kissing him even since that day, it was jus 2 days ago but it feels like forever. i love how his eyes twinkle when he sees me, or how his hands feel holding me, his smile, his fluffy hair, his affection that he is too shy to show but I can feel. His voice is so soothing i have hear him talk all day, i feel home in his arms, my heart is beating so fast writing this, my eyes are teary, our humour matches, our love for marvel, and pop culture is similar. I can't describe how well he fits in the future I've made up in my time. no one has ever been able to fit into it that way. We are taking things slow cause even tho we knew each from a year, we aren't technically a couple yet. He wants me to take charge most of the time, but I want a date, planned by him where he asks me to be his gf, to experience that just for once, but he so damn shy it's so cute😭😭😭
I'm in love with this guy and I can't explain how much, my heart sores. Last night, we talked on call for the very 1st time. I'm his 1st gf ever as well, so we were just giggling 💀
I love u baby, if u were read this somehow.
YOU ARE READING
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