A little girl plays in a park
She loses her balance and falls
Tears tremble on the edge of her eyes
Although they never dare to tumble
Her mother's disapproving look
Meaning more to her than having fun
Little girl turns 11
Her world turned on its head
A boy touched and broke her
He made her feel special, safe, suicidal
"It's not all men" they say
Yeah, it's young boys too
Little girl starts to question herself
Just how perfect is she, if she's damaged goods
Although no-one knows what happened to her
She still gets treated narcissistically
Pushed to her limits at school
"How will another A grade fix me?
It won't, but it will make them like me more"
Broken girl turns 13
A supposed teenage dream
Shattered with death 26 days later
Her eyes lose their sparkle
She snaps the elastic on her wrist
Red rings puncturing the skin
This pain hurting less than the hole in her heart
"You're fine, stop whining"
"But what about-"
"It's always my fault, isn't it? I'm such a bad mother"
Why am I so hard to love?
Maybe I deserve all of this
Her parents have no idea who she truly is
All they see is this facade
Slowly that little girl is gone
Just a shell of what she once was
She's lost her heart, her mind, her sanity
Nothing too important, she's told
Not so little girl turns 15
She meets another boy
Hoping he's different than the last
Her heart flutters with its fractured wings
All her love poured out on a golden platter
He leaves her more destroyed than before
That sharp knife on the counter
It starts calling her name
Narcissism still runs deep
Manipulation the drug she is prescribed
The face in the mirror not hers to keep
That little girl who is mature for her age
Shes been 18+ since she was a child
She deserved better
I deserved better
But what if 5 years from now things change?
You start to see that little girl glowing
Her inner peace now outweighing perfectionism
She deserves it all, every last moment of it
The career, the love, the family, the life
Even after all the darkness she has been through
She shines brighter than any star in the sky
So maybe it's not all about the ending
Whether it be happy or not
Maybe it's about the story
The journey you take
The struggles you face
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Unsaid Words
Poetry"Her soul was too deep to be explored by those who always swam in the shallow end." - A.J.Lawless A collection of thoughts and quotes from someone who sees life in a different perspective. P.S. They get better towards the end, promise
