I wake up in a familar moving vehicle with the smell of bitter-sweet lemon filling my nose. Cartman's van. My head shot up in the thought and I saw Cartman in the front seat driving, the sky infront had now turned a deep purple like Cartman's cute blus-. What am I saying? I'm not gay, right?
My heart began to beat faster, what was this feeling? I am not gay. Up till now I have only dated girls and liked girls, it will stay that way.
Cartman's head turned around, he looked tired, then smiled.
"Welcome back to reality," I glared at him, I didn't know if I should feel happy or angry. Maybe I was sad because of Butters.
"Where are we? Why am I in your van?" I didn't realise it but I began crying, tears streamed down my face like rivers. He parked the van on the empty highway and crawled to the back seat where I was.
His hand whiped away my tears and then he slowly cupped my cheek, looking deeply into my eyes. My hair started to be strocked by Cartman as he took of my hat.
"Are you ok?"
"..."
I hit his hands off me in anger. He looked mentally hurt.
"Why is Butters saved on your phone with a heart?"
"Kyle it's.. compli-," I cut him off.
"Tell me. What is this? Is this just one of your sick jokes?"
Tears flooded my face.
"I don't even know if I'm straight or not anymore because of you! Why is Butters named that? ANSWER ME, PLEASE!"
"BECAUSE I FUCKING LIKE HIM. I LIKE YOU AS WELL KYLE AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, OKAY?"
"I-,"
"I don't want to hear it Kyle. You got what you wanted," Tears leaked from his eyes, this was the first time I've seen him cry in years.
"I'm sorry Cartman,"
"I'm sorry for shouting Kyle,"
"It's ok,"
"I'm just.. confused, Kyle, on who I like. Because I think Butters just sees me as a friend, I don't know about you,"
"I just need time Kyle,"
Those words hit me like a thousand bullets, I think I know what this feeling is know. Love. And I guess loving is a losing game.
A/N
Hi my munchkins<33! I hope you liked this chapter because I nearly started crying while making it ;c. Also this is a REMAKE because my friend shay made this a horror like chapter and I hated it so I'm making it sad. Also sorry this took ages to publish its because I've been crying for hours as me and my best friend shay aren't friends anymore and she blocked me
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