All Or Nothing ♔ Fezco

39. the letter

dear heaven,

you know that i'm really, really bad at words. that's why i figured it'd be easier for me to write you this instead of embarrassing myself trying to actually tell you.

i know that the past few months have been hard for us. and i know it's my fault. but i really have been thinking about what you said.

all the shit you've done for me. and ash. i don't think i've ever actually said thank you. so that's what this is. a thank you letter.

i still remember the day we met. rue brought you by the store. when i looked at you i swear i couldn't focus on nothing anymore.

i thought you were new or something. there was no way i had never seen you before. don't tell ash but i practically begged rue to give me your number.

when you told me your name was heaven i thought you were joking. like of course it is because you look like literal heaven.

you're my own guardian angel. my angel.

i wasn't expecting to fall in love with anybody. but when i saw you i knew i didn't really have a choice.

i meant it when i said i want to make you happy for the rest of my life. everything else can come second to you.

i love you. more than i can really put into words.

i wish you could've met my grandma. like really met her. she told me not to fall in love but i think she would've approved of you.

i think you're probably the only one she would've approved of. you kinda remind me of her. i don't think either of you is really scared of anything.

you're both really strong and you take care of your people. pretty sure she would've kicked my ass for ever hurting you.

ash wanted to kick my ass for hurting you. he'll never tell you but i know he really loves you too. sometimes i think he might actually like you more than me.

you're the only one who watches those gory ass horror movies with him. both of y'all some fucking psychos i swear.

i haven't even seen you in your dress yet but i know you look so beautiful right now. you always do. don't know how i got so lucky.

can't wait for forever with you

love, fez

authors note!

hi! unfortunately this is the end of all or nothing for now. i had plans to wait for s3 but with angus passing i'm not sure what i'll do. maybe if i get some ideas i'll write my own version if their ending but for now this is where our story ends!

thank you all for reading!