The life of Tyrus after Season 3

12.01.22. Authors Note

Hey everyone!

For those reading this, you probably didn't think you'd hear of me again. I wrote and finished this fanfiction YEARS ago after all. I often thought about returning in some form to this plattform. Either giving an update on this story, or writing a new one. However, I just never could bring myself to it. Life's been busy after all.

So you probably wonder why I'm even giving an update at all. Well, I still get notifications that people are still reading this story, so I figured I might as well say something. I now had a few years to reflect back on this story and the state I was in during this time.

I'll just come out and say it. I think this fanfictions sucks.

There are so many issues I find myself having with it nowadays, that I even feel kinda bad, still having the story up. But what do I mean by this? Well, I'll break it down into what I think went great and what I think didn't go quite as well.

The Good
-Each chapter individually isn't bad. I made sure to add a lot of detail and small moments of things I would've liked to read myself in a fanfiction. Things like the first meet up of Cyrus and TJ in this story, or their little date really made small dreams I had come true.

-I added some personality to some characters that didn't get much to work with during the actual show. I still think I did a phantastic Job making Cyrus, TJ and especially Jonah a bit more tangable as living people. Studying how people tick and behave is something I'm fascinated with and I believe I succeeded at subtly showing under what believe system many characters operate.

-The "Case" was kinda okish. Coming up with how the details worked and putting in hints about what's going on throughout the story were each highlights to write for me. And even if it's a bit mid, I'm just writing fanfiction, nobody needs a Sherlock Holmes level case.

The Bad
-I couldn't even be bothered to give it a proper title, "The life of Tyrus after Season 3" I mean come on.

-I did not think about how this story would go or even end when I started. I felt very inspired to write a lot of emotionally intimate scenes at the beginning. However the lack of orientation was more than noticable after I finished writing all the sweet chapters. This was the symptom of many other problems and brough a myriad of them itself.

-Like wtf, why did I made a U-Turn in the story and suddenly started writing a Police style crime case. I knew I had to somehow bring in a bit of Kira retalliating against how she was dealt with at the end of the TV Show. However this should have never become the whole story. And that's because:

-Why did I chose to give hate so much space at all? We read fanfiction to forget about how the real world sometimes does us dirty and makes us feel missunderstood. So for me to take this story, that started out as a fluff, feel-good story, and turn it into fighting against opression and hate is not how I should've done it. Overcoming struggles is something we do on a daily basis and reading about it can be wonderful and inspiring. But like, stories are a piece of fiction, why include struggles, pain and suffering at all? Heartstopper showed us, queer love, doesn't need to focus constant misery to be great. I wish I understood this much sooner

-A lot of this story was more than just heavily inspired by Danganronpa. For anyone unaware, Danganronpa is a visual novel game series, focused around solving murders their fellow high school classmates commited. I was down so hard in this rabbit hole, it quickly devoured a lot of my freetime and thoughts. This fanfiction was no exception either. While it is no crime to be inspired and influenced by something, it got worse and worse towards the end, resulting in me copying whole conversations and fitting them into here. This was incredibly lazy and the reason why I did this, leads into the last point

-I was in a veeeery bad place mentally when writing this story. Life treated me pretty rough and around the same time I worked on this, I slowly started to lose it. I will not go too much into detail on what exactly went through my head, but I was very close to abandoning my sanity. And the worst thing about it was I knew it. I knew the actions and inactions of my last few months were crashing like a card house with me in the middle of it. This was not something I was willing to easily accept. Saying I was very on edge at that time is an understatement. So I started putting more time into this book to finish it up quickly before I'd go of the deep end. Especially the last few chapters feel very weird to me nowadays. I literally wrote the last few chapters in the mental hospital, with my laptop on the desk in my room. I'm doing much much much better now, don't worry, I worked through a lot in the last few years. I'm very happy as of right now :3

Final Thoughts
This story has a lot of good ideas, but imo fails to commit to anything worthwile, falling a bit flat in many areas it could've succeeded in, if I gave it the time and forethought. I thought about rewriting it, but I never thought it would be worth my time, as many people have already moved on from Andi Mack to being actually busy in real life. But I mean, maybe I'm wrong, maybe now a lot of you will find themselves in the comments section of this, demanding I'd give it my best one final time. I mean after all, I never thought I'd get 17k views on this story.

I also thought about just deleting this, but since I still get notifications about people actually reading it, I'd feel bad. Also it maybe serves as a momentary record of that summer-winter 2019, even if there are many other times that I'd prefer remembering, but oh well, not gonna beat myself up over it x)

I think I've gone on for long enough. If you're still reading this, left your thoughts on it in the comment section, I'm still reading those comments when I get them x)

With that being said, I wish you all a great day <3