Euphoria

"Emotions"

Tae Rin-Cha

I closed the door to his room tightly, and sighed as I was out. I leaned heavily against the wall, regretting what I had just done. I didn't know how to feel. Yes, I know I've known Jin-Woo for more than ten years, but still...I did know he used to have a crush on me, and he did say he moved on. I shouldn't be toying with him. Even if he's in his twenties, he's still young and fragile, and so is his heart.

God, I'm such an idiot. I can't even come to terms with my own feelings.

"Rin-Cha, ready to go?"

"Yeah, let's head out."

Jin-Ah and I began walking out of the hospital, and she noticed my droopy face in an instant. She scoffed lightly, and put an arm around my shoulder with ease. I sighed heavily and buried my face in my hands.

"So you're still in love with him, huh?"

"I don't know. Maybe. Yes. No," I muttered, still in agony over the situation.

"Come on Rin-Cha. It's so obvious that he feels the same way," Jin-Ah began, trying to help soothe out the situation as best as she could.

"I can't believe that unless the words come from his mouth, and I'm still not sure if I have feelings for him. I mean, we've been best friends for more than twenty years, maybe if we got together that would jeopardize our relationship, and-"

"Stop. Let's move away from this subject, it's clearly not the right time to discuss this. Ah, and I would much rather talk more about you, and not my crappy brother. I ramble about him so much it hurts, but I don't see you a lot, so let's catch up on how you're doing, and not Jin-Woo."

I laughed nervously and nodded. "I guess you're right. Sorry about always being so dramatic."

"No worries! That's what I like about you, Rin-Cha! Come on, let's go get some coffee!"

She pulled me along, and we stopped at a small cafe on the way to my house. I went here occasionally with some of my friends when we were off work, and the amount of times I've gone here with Jin-Woo is uncountable. This was our favorite place to wind down and get a hot drink before turning in for the night. No wonder Jin-Ah wants to visit this place, it's practically the perfect pit stop for pastries and caffeine.

"So, how've you been these past few months? I haven't seen you at all!" She took a sip of her coffee, indulging happily in the flavour as she stared at me with a grin.

"Just the usual. Some raids that are successful, some that aren't. I've also been working part time at a restaurant to get some extra cash. Bills are something that really hits hard when you live by yourself."

"Ouch, yeah. Jin-Woo has to do all that for now, but I'm sure once I find a stable job I'll be the one providing for us. Plus, at the state he's in, I'm pretty sure he'll drop being a Hunter. I mean the guy is more powerful than a regular human, but he almost never makes enough money to pay rent. Luckily we have you, though."

"I'll always be here for you and Jin-Woo, Jin-Ah. Even if you can't afford rent and neither can I, I'll personally let you guys stay at my apartment. You two are the only family I have left."

"How long has it been?"

I sighed and took a sip of my tea, sighing shakily.

"Four years," I answered, trying so hard not to remember that night.

Jin-Ah's hand landed on top of my clenched one on the table, and she gave it a small squeeze. I breathed out slowly, smiling as much as I could to hide the pain behind my eyes.