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SEBASTIAN THOUGHT OF THE RED HEAD REGULARLY, he missed him. ian was visiting regularly whenever he could go see him, but sebastian still missed him. he wouldn't admit it aloud, but it was true. maybe he'd say it jokingly when in reality it's not a joke. ian was sebastian's best friend, but it was different from valerie.
sebastian didn't smile at every thought of valerie, or want to kiss her. it was very different. sebastian missed the red head so much.
sebastian got his sling off and his collarbone was still recovering. so far his sentence was shortening due to 'good behaviour'. james gave sebastian a different way to let out anger, by going to the gym. james specifically aimed him in the direction of the punching bag, since 'he wanted to punch something so badly'.
if seb was honest, the punching bag helped. the noirette visited the as often gym as he could, with whatever free time he was given. each punch was almost therapeutic, he loved it. it was a plus that he wasn't bleeding with every punch — unless he forgets to wrap his hands, which happens more often than you think.
so that's what sebastian did. he either went from punching the punching bag, or lifting some weights. sebastian knew he wasn't completely ripped or anything, he was basically a twig — due to refusing to eat — but he had a bit of muscle. james was also helping encourage the noirette to eat, which sebastian chose to go along with.
it's not that sebastian wanted to be healthy, he just knew if he caved into what people wanted, they'd leave him alone afterwards — hence why he's slept with so many people.
the following day was a visiting day, so he knew that ian would be coming to see him.
it took sebastian awhile to realize that he forgot to wrap his hands before starting. he looked at his knuckles, a red hue covering them. the noirette sighed, making a late decision that he wasn't going to spend any time in the gym.
he was escorted back to his room by james, where he still had to be handcuffed to his bed at night. sebastian wasn't trusted to not hurt himself when he was alone. sebastian did stop — mostly because they took precautions to stop himself — when they threatened to transfer him to a mental hospital.
sebastian did not want to go to a mental hospital, so he tried to keep his cool and not hurt himself while on his meds. when sebastian was sent to the psychiatrist, she didn't prescribe him new antidepressants, she just said it'll pass and he just needed to keep taking prozac.
sebastian also found out that day that he isn't just suffering from severe depression, but bpd, anxiety and generalized amnesia. sebastian was forced onto more medication because of it. sebastian sat back against the wall, staring at the spot on the wall he punched before. there was still blood smeared across.
