Evan peters imagines

one time thing (James March[AHS])

i had been seeing James for the past two months now, i didn't know what to call our relationship if you could even call it that. i had feelings for James very deep feelings but i knew the type of man he was.. he wasn't the type to fall for someone he was more the type to just do what he wanted with one and move on to the other, so i kept quiet and we kept meeting each other and well as you would guess we would have a few drinks before engaging in intercourse.

and tonight was just another one of those nights, but this time.. i was going to speak with James about the feelings that had been growing inside of me for him even if it doesn't end how i want it to..

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i finished getting ready making myself look somewhat better for James before making my way down to the bottom floor and to his room, i open the door and step inside to hear the same jazz music playing once again like it always did when i was here.

"James?" i call out as i walk farther into the room looking around and not spotting the man i came here for..

"ah hello lovely" he says walking out of his washroom i smile and walk over to him placing a soft kiss on his cheek making him smile and return the gesture.

"i was starting to think you wouldn't show"

"oh of course not" he says before walking over to the table that held all of his alcohol on it, he opens a glass bottle and pours it into two glass cups and hands on to me with a smile still on his face. i smile back at him and take the glass and take a sip from it the burning taste of the drink slowly going down my throat i must have pulled a face because i hear James let out a small chuckle as he makes his way over to the seating area of the room, i sigh and follow behind him being much more nervous than i normally am but i just didn't know how James would react once i told him how i felt for him..

i sit down fixing my skirt as i did so, once sat down James goes on to talk about his line of work again and the detective that had recently checked into the hotel this was a re-accruing thing every time i came down here James was always the one to start the talking he loved to go on and on about his type of work. so i just sat across from him my legs crossed to stop themselves from gitterning due to my nerves being on high tonight, i continue to sip at the drink in my hand well i listened to James as he talked even though i wasn't really listening to every word he said i was lost deep in my thoughts thinking maybe i shouldn't tell him just let things go on like this.. i didn't want James to be upset with me i never wanted to do anything to upset which was very easy to do.

i was along snapped out of my thoughts when i hear James place his glass down so i hurry to look at him nervous i had already upset him since i had not been listening.

"I'm sorry James my minds just everywhere tonight"

"well whys that? is everything alright"

"ah yes don't worry everything is perfectly okay"

"good, don't want you worrying over something i could most likely fix" he grins, every time he gives me that grin it makes my knees shake seeing how his eyes narrowed while looking at me like he was scanning me like i was pray to him.

"you seem off my love what's the matter?" he sighs leaning back in his chair picking his glass up once again and taking a small sip of the drink still looking at me as he did so, i sigh and place my glass down then look down at my lap rubbing my fingers together. i felt the words just at the tip of my tongue but i felt as if they were stuck there and i could not say what was needed to be said, i watch as James stands up grabbing his glass and making his way over to the his drink table once again not saying a word he must still have been waiting for me to begin but once again the words were stuck..

the door then opens and James helper walks in she was a middle aged woman and was always helping James cleaning up his messes, but i don't find she is too fond of me once she spots me sat on the chair so look back at march.

"I'm sorry sir, i had no idea you had company"

"i have them here the same night every week"

"ah yes, i suppose that's true"

"do you need something?"

"ah! well that detective wants to speak with you sir"

"right now?"

"he said it won't take long"

James just sighs and places him glass down and looks back over to me i give him a sweet but still nervous smile.

"it's no problem James, I'll still be here when you get back"

he gives me a grin and leaves the room followed by his helper i never quite got her name since once again i don't think she liked me very much, i sat there looking down at my lap feeling the lump in my throat grow larger. why couldn't i just said what i wanted to say it was just at the tip of my tongue!

i sigh and stand up making my way over to the drinks and re-fill my glass, James must have come in while i was doing so because he soon wraps his arms around my waist and places his head on my shoulder leaving cold kisses up my neck and on my jaw line. i smile and turn myself around to face him seeing that grin still on his face, he doesn't waist a minute before he lifts my face and connects our lips. his kisses were always filled with hungry and lust but i just couldn't help but get lost in the feeling of his hands grabbing onto my waist and kissing me deeper, but i knew this needed to stop if i wanted to get any word out because soon this kissing would lead to something else. i place my hand on his chest and push him away slightly making him look down at me confused.

"i need to talk to you about something James"

"of course, what's the matter dear?"

"what is this?"

"pardon?"

"what are we? are we just some hook up?"

"well i never really gave what we might be a thought, but why are you bringing this up?"

"well James, i love your company your charming and funny even if you talk about yourself most of the times but.."

"James... i have feelings for you like heavy feelings and i wanted to speak to you about it because i don't know if i can do whatever this is anymore, i just love you much to pretend i don't"

i finish before looking up at him to see what his face red but when i saw it i wasn't able to tell what he was thinking or feeling his face was just blank.

"James?" i ask but he didn't answer just hurry's to slam his lips onto mine on hand resting on my hip as the other one rested on face, this came as a shock at first but instead this kiss wasn't filled with hunger or lust it felt like for the first time his kiss was filled with love. once he pulls away i stare at him in shock my lips still tingling from this feeling of his he grins down and me his hands still rested where they were as he stared into my eyes.

"you drive me mad you know"

"i do?"

"yes very much, every time you come back to me i wished i could keep you here in this room with my longer and never let go of you. i wanted you to be mine and only mine"

"why didn't you say anything? i was sat here thinking i wasn't anything special to you"

"oh your very special to me, i crave you every damn day it's become un bearably"

he says his breath trickling off my next as i shiver under his gaze feeling my knees becoming weak under me.

"don't speak like that James, your making me feel things.."

"why don't i show you how much i crave you.."

"yes please.."