Only you - ghost x reader

10

After training with Soap, I mentally prepared myself to confront John about what happened yesterday. Since it was already afternoon, I assumed he wasn't that hungover anymore.

So I went to John's room right after target practice.
When I got there, I stood in front of the door.
I hadn't made a plan for how to address everything.
I wondered if he even remembered what had happened.

I gathered all my courage and knocked on the door. There was no answer.
I try again, but this time I knocked harder on the door. I heard John's voice from the room telling me to come in.

I grabbed the door handle, took a deep breath and walked into the room.
John was still in bed and apparently had no intention of getting up. I stood in the middle of the room and looked around.
John has always been messy, but I never imagined it to be this bad.
There were clothes scattered everywhere in the room and everything else didn't look tidy either.

"How are you feeling?" I asked him.
"I still don't feel very well, still hungover. How are you feeling?" he answered.
"I'm good. I'll make it short too, I came here to talk to you."
"I was wondering when you'd show up to ask me about it."

I looked at him and noticed that he was nervous.
"So you remember you tried to kiss me and Ghost had to stop you from doing it again?"
"... Yes. The alcohol gave me courage to try. I've wanted to do this for a while y/n. But I've never dared before. We've known each other for so long and over time I've developed feelings for you. When I was drunk I figured I'd just try it. It was a mistake, I can see that. I just don't understand why Ghost interfered."

I stared at him and was shocked.
"You have feelings for me?"
"Yes," he answered curtly.
"Why didn't you ever say anything?"
"I didn't dare because I was afraid that you wouldn't return my feelings. And it seems you don't either, do you?"

I waited a moment before answering. I didn't want to hurt him, so I had to be careful what I say now.
"You know I like you. We've been through a lot together. But I have no romantic feelings for you, I'm sorry."
"Okay... I just felt like there was something between us. You sometimes gave hints, flirted with me. That's why I thought you might have feelings too. Why did Ghost get involved in the first place? Where is the guy anyway?"
"I don't know why he interfered. but you were so drunk he had to stop you from trying to kiss me again. I am also grateful to him for that. The Movie Night was over for me and he took me to my room afterwards."

"What? How long have you gotten along so well? are you into him??
"no! He just helped me!"
John's question made my face red. I didn't know if I was into him. Anyway, I don't think that's the case...
"You'd better go now." John said, snapping me out of my thoughts.

I had a feeling he was trying to get rid of me, so without a word I turned and left.