Kai's POV
"Where the hell have you been all day." Zach shouted at me as I walked into the house.
"I went for a walk in the woods, and I fell asleep. And I maybe got lost." I whimpered.
"I'm sorry for shouting at you." Zach said as he hugged me. "Seth has been going mental all day. You should be glad he is out for a run just now."
"Okay. I'm going to my room." I said as I ran away from Zach.
When I got to my room I stripped down and jumped into my shower so I could clean my arms.
As I stood under the hot spray, I winced every time a drop of water hit a cut for the first time.
When I got out of my shower I looked in the mirror.
Staring back at me was a person I didn't recognize.
When I was younger I was always happy nand smiling.
Now I never smile.
Why should I.
My life will never get any better. It's just going to keep on spiraling downwards until I relapse.
Shit I haven't taken my pills today.
I picked out the bottles from my cupboard.
Anti-depressants. Painkillers that the pack doctor gave me yesterday.
I set them out on the counter and wrapped a towel around myself.
Knock. Knock.
I went to the door and opened it to see Seth.
"Thank god you are sa..." His words cut off as he looked at my arms." Why, Kai. Why."
"I'm worthless, no one likes me never mind if anyone would love me." I replied as I looked at my feet.
I walked into my bathroom to take my pills.
"Kai, what are you doing?" Seth asked as he walked into my bathroom.
I put the pills in my mouth and drank some water.
"I'm taking my pills." I sassed.
"Why didn't you tell me you are depressed?" He asked.
"No one knows. That's why." I paused." Now get out of my room."
He walked out, silently closing the door after him.
He infuriates me so much sometimes.
I put on some boxers and a tee, then I jumped in my bed and went to sleep.
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Sidey stuff is when it is the song playing
Normal stuff is when it is Kai singing.
So here we go
You got one more chance to make it
You better not lose control
Before everyone forgets your name.
I woke up and looked around my room trying to find where the music was coming from.
I looked and seen my alarm. Ahh.
"This will always be mine
So much more than just a dream to me
And I will never be fine with letting you ruin everything
And I will never fucking follow your lead
Give up on you, so you can take it out on me
I'm sorry that you had to watch your life come tumbling down."
Now its time and I'm ready to go
Here we go
We got one more chance to make it
Better not lose control
Before everyone forgets your name
"Here we go
We got one more chance to make it
Better not lose control
Before everyone forgets your name
You've always been the one to criticize me
Because I'm not like you, you see
The way you've been living your life
There's nothing there worth holding onto
But I will never fucking understand
The hate you've got for me
Cause I only have one shot at this
The past is past
Move on to better days
Now its time and I'm ready to go
Here we go
We got one more chance to make it
Better not lose control
Before everyone forgets your name
Here we go
We got one more chance to make it
Better not lose control
Before everyone
Everyone forgets your name
This is your time
You better take it
You better never let it go
This is your time
You better take it
It could be gone before you know"
Don't pick it up
"Here we go
You got one more chance to make it
You better think before
You go and throw it all away
Here we go
You got one more chance to make it
Better not lose control
Before everyone forgets your name
Here we go
You got one more chance to make it
Better not lose control
Before everyone forgets your name."
Sometimes I feel as if he is talking about my life, why do so many people hate me.
I walked over to my wardrobe and pulled out a pair of black skinnys, and a Sleeping with Sirens, whiteish coloured jumper.
I slipped on my black vans, grabbed my phone and earphones.
I walked out of my room picking my bag up at my door as I walked by.
I put my earphones in my bag, which I then put on my back.
I pulled down my sleeves so they covered my hands and walked to the door to see if Alec and Grace were here yet.
I walked out the house and got in the car.
"Hey, we made new friend yesterday." Grae chirped.
"Where the hell were you yesterday." Alec growled.
"I went for a walk in the woods and I fell asleep." I replied.
"We were all so worried." Grace added.
"Well I'm fine." I shouted and jumped out of the car and ran into the school.
As I was running I ran into someone.
I looked up to see a red haired boy.
No. No no.
Hes the boy from my dream.
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Hey so the song that was in this chapter is Here we go by Sleeping with Sirens.
I love that song.
The picture is Dom.
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Anyways,
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