The Girl With The Gift

Hold Back These Tears

As I sit here and wonder if that life will ever come,

To be married, and have kids like I've always dreamed;

Here looking at the "negative" pregnancy test feeling numb,

As my mind went blank, while my insides screamed.

I throw the whole package out, wishing for it to be not true,

I cling to my body, as if this curse was the reason;

I told myself young I wasn't gunna get married or have kids, but that changed when I grew,

Yet, I am stuck with that curse, and now I don't feel great for this upcoming holiday season.

I know I shouldn't have any reason to shed these tears,

For I am still young, so they say,

But I have grown to have baby fever and are dreading to wait a couple years;

For me time is frozen, while I watch everyone move on with their lives day by day.