Drama Between Schools; Haikyuu x Kuroko no Basketball

Part 12; Laying Empty

Today was hard. Everything was hard though. I didn't want to get out of bed. They didn't even try to get me out of my bed. I wanted to go back to Tokyo but needed this break. It will be better. I hope so.

My cousin Daichi is at his volleyball practice and his parents were at work so it was just me, myself and I. Which made it even worse. I just felt numb. I have no idea why I felt like this. I have felt like this since the day I left for Miyagi. I guess I just missed Shogo. Or maybe I hoped the team would come to say goodbye but they didn't. I thought they were my friends. I guess I thought wrong.

They all have tried to get me out of bed but it hasn't worked or they just haven't tried hard enough. Shogo hasn't even texted me since I left. I haven't heard a peep from the team as well. I guess I don't mean anything to them right? I just need to stop thinking about this. It will only hurt more. Right?

So many questions I have to ask someone but no one is here to even let me ask them. Not like they would even have a straight answer for me. I just feel so overwhelmed with everything. Maybe I shouldn't have come to stay here, maybe I should have just stayed in Tokyo.

I should text Shogo to see if he wants to facetime. 'Hey wanna call?'

I waited half an hour to see if he would answer but he didn't. Why hasn't he answered me? Did I do something wrong? I start to freak out hoping I didn't ruin our relationship by leaving for the summer. I can't lose him. I already lost the team and Momoi. No, I didn't lose Momoi. She lost me.

I stay there laying in bed staring at the ceiling in the dark not knowing if time has been passing. I want to cry but nothing will come out. Why am I even crying? I have nothing to cry about. Right? So many unanswered questions. I can make it through this. I need this. This will be good for me. Right?