beautiful broken bones • Matty Healy x Reader

4 • what a coincidence..

9th october London
10:30am

Y/n's pov
I woke up in the hotel bedroom next to Bliss, I never had nightmares when i slept next to her.. i felt safe around her.
She was already wide awake an excited smile planted on her face.
'good morning!, im gonna go get some breakfast before i get ready, you coming?' she asked.
this was the perfect chance for me to sort some lines out whilst she was gone..
'uh- no i'll grab something later, i hate eating in the mornings' i said with a groggy morning voice.
'that's okay, i'll be like an hour and then we can get ready for the concert!!' she squealed.

Once Bliss had left i jumped out of bed and placed a cigarette between my lips. I grabbed the bag containing the ket and sorted out 3 average sized lines, 'god i missed you..' i mumbled to myself.
Frantically, i searched around the room looking for my purse eventually finding it and taking out a ten pound note to roll up.
I could hear my brain scratching and ticking away as i inhaled the substance i had been 'clean' from for years. The drip back was just as bad as usual so i grabbed a water bottle and gulped it down washing away the rancid taste from the back of my throat.

I know why I didn't tell a single soul about me relapsing straight after i got out of rehab, because they'd just send me straight back. I didn't want to stop, yes i knew how it was slowly killing me but i couldn't return to sniffing cocaine and ketamine everyday or people would notice, so i had to do it every week or every so often. It was hard at first but it gave me control and chaos again.

All the urges went silent and i felt peaceful, the room spun slightly and i felt the urge to dance.
Smiling, i quickly sniffed a key to keep me going until i could get away from Bliss later on.
Shuffling my playlist on Spotify, Robbers by the 1975 came on. It felt amazing in my head and hit the right spots causing me more serotonin, i hid away the drugs before Bliss could come back and continued dancing around the room whilst smoking the cigarette between my lips.

11:15am

Bliss came back a bit earlier with the excuse of 'i'm too excited we need to get ready now!'
I was still on a good high and put on the clothes i had bought for the concert. Meanwhile, Bliss put on her overpriced purple dress and some black fishnets to compliment the outfit.

I was zoning out and disassociating for what felt like a few seconds but it'd been a couple of hours. I had done my makeup a bit extra today, sharp black eyeliner, faux freckles, more defined nose contour, big false lashes and a nudey dark pink matte lipstick.
'you look HOT!' Bliss screamed in excitement.
'you look drop dead gorgeous babe' i said watching her do a little spin to show off her dress. 'do my boobs look okay in this dress though?' i asked readjusting my bra.
She laughed, 'of course they look amazing'.

I was able to sniff 2 more lines whilst Bliss went to do her hair in the bathroom. I was getting risky but i was so high i couldn't fear getting caught.

'y/n, you okay?' Bliss asked walking out of the bathroom. 'oh yeah i'm good j-just dizzy spells' i laughed sitting down. fuck did she notice the stutter. 'anxiety of crowds catching up to me i guess' i quickly said. 'don't worry about it, if it gets too much for either of us i have my autism pass' she said giggling. It surprised me that Bliss loved concerts because the loud noises and commotion of people screaming would often cause her to breakdown. But music calmed her, music calmed me. But sometimes music isn't enough for me. I sniffled discretely into my jacket, the drip back was coming back. I looked too suspicious going for the water so i swallowed the drip back trying not to make a grimace.

tonight was going to be hard...

7:00pm
concert time

Somehow, Bliss and i had made it to the barrier, she was ecstatic. Beforehand, I had excused myself to go to the bathroom and i ended up being able to sniff 3 more lines but of the cocaine this time. I was so high i felt like my organs were going to jump out of me if i didn't move constantly. It felt amazing, i was now as excited for the concert as Bliss.

The band came into the stage and there was something about the singer that seemed so.. familiar? nostalgic? His hair was in curls, he wore a white button up shirt with black trousers and a black tie to match. I held back a laugh when i saw his shoes, he seemed confident but still arrogant as well. However, the rest of the band seemed pretty reserved.

Once the music started, the peak of my high came. The first song they sang was 'sex' and the lyrics felt like they were seeping into my veins and running through my blood..

"And there's only minutes before I drop you off
All we seem to do it talk about sex
She's got a boyfriend anyway
She's got a boyfriend anyway'

The lead singer came up to the front of the stage near Bliss and I, we both screamed and i swear he winked at me. I danced and sung along as i knew this song pretty well due to Bliss showing it to me a while back.

He came back up to where Bliss and I were standing, reaching his arm out.

'And I'm not trying to stop you, love
If we're gonna do anything, we might as well just fuck'

And for the second time he winked at me, seeing him closer he looked so.. good and so familiar.

have i met him before? i pondered but being so high it was difficult so i just tried to ignore it and enjoy the music.

After a couple of songs he was starting to strip off his shirt, the crowd screamed.

And i almost screamed. but not in the way they did.

There was no way...? what a fucking coincidence.

I saw his tattoo on the centre of his chest and immediately realised where i knew him from...