Unexpected Events

-conquer 5.16-

I didn't hesitate to move out of one house and into another after me and Carl's fight. He knew I liked him, embarrassing. I didn't want a conversation with a slow let down that goes along the lines of, "your a great guy, but I'm not like that".

Luckily in the other house nobody was sleeping on the couch. The no privacy wasn't a big deal because I didn't have any to begin with.

And somehow within a day or two I was supposedly dating Ron. At least that's what he told people. I didn't mind. Being with him took my mind off things- like how I just fucked up the best thing in my life.

"Tell me about them." Ron said laying next to me. We were in his room on his bed after kissing a lot. I liked kissing him more than actually talking. Currently he was trying to pry my life story from me.

"Okay, my mom was a runaway, don't know who my real dad is, and somehow my dad died." I said annoyed, summarizing it blandly.

"That's all you'll tell me?" Ron asked, twisting onto his side so he could look at me. I didn't bother to look back, instead concentrated outside the window.

"What else is there? I don't know shit about any of them."

"Well what was your dad like?" Ron asked. Apparently his dad was extremely abusive towards his whole family, I found that out after accidentally being at the house at the wrong time.

"He was something." I say, finally looking at him, seeing just confusion on his face. "He could be the best person ever sometimes but then be a complete stranger. Then one day he just changed." I said, getting the chills from the remembrance of my fathers dead cold stare.

"Wow..." Ron said letting out a sigh. "You don't know anything about your mom though?"

"I mean, there was times where my dad would mention stuff about her but it was years ago. Her name was or is Violet. She got drunk a lot after she had me, like postpartum depression." I looked back up at the ceiling. God why are feelings so difficult? "She didn't like me. When my dad would get drunk he would tell me how happy they were... until they had me."

I bit my tongue, to both stop myself from continuing and crying.

Ron put his hand on my arm. "You are a great person. She missed out on you." He tried to comfort me.

I turned to him. "You don't know me."

——

"Hey." I said walking up to Maggie. "What times the meeting tonight?" I asked. Everyone's been talking about this meeting so I figured I would go, as long as Maggie allowed me.

"You aren't going." She told me flatly.

"And why not?"

"Because whatever thing that is going on between you and Carl needs to end." I huffed out a breath. "I know you might not want my judgement, but he is your best friend."

"Well he's not anymore-"

"You are watching Judith with him. No excuses."

Maggie acted like a mom. At first, I'd yell at her telling her she's not my mom. But now? Now I listen. I will never admit it to her face but she knows what's best for me. I found that out the hard way.

"Fine. But if don't be surprised when nothing happens; because it won't." I told her.

"We'll see." She said with a smile to which I replied with a roll of my eyes and leaving.

——

"We should talk." Carl said after coming down the stairs. Judith was now sleeping and it was time to face it.