BELIEVE

Chapter 21

Zander's POV
Oh wow!

Fuck!!

I never believed that could ever happen to me!! Me almost losing my Mars

My life. My joy. My peace!!! I just love her so much and l can't bare. I just can't bare losing her!!

You know when fucking ran to the top of the building I felt like my world was ending

When she wanted to fall off!!

No! I don't want to remember this cause at least she's now here with me.
I wipe my tears as l take the tray to her. Everyone slept but l just wouldn't. I can't sleep without knowing that my Mars is fine

I found one of her brothers Dillon awake. Well l'm fucking happy that these guys aren't actually assholes they care about my Mars and that's good! Dillon one of her brothers  helped me feed Mars with glucose.
He would say jokes and Mars would laugh and smile so amazingly!!!

Fuck!!

She looked so beautiful!!

Whenever l looked at her each time out eyes would meet and she would just look away

Until she was done and Dillon left. l stayed with Mars in the room alone and with also the dickface sleeping.
But should l? Yeah l have to. I can't just keep it to myself. I have to tell her?

"Mars" she then tilts her head to my side since she was looking at the window.
"Hmmm" she says it while looking at me with innocent cute eyes.
Fuck this girl will one day make me go crazy! "Zander" she gives me what-do-you-want-to-tell-me look.
Holy shit! l got caught up in my thoughts and forgot that l wanted to talk to Mars

"So ummmmm"

"Oh no, your daddy didn't like me my much and he didn't believe when l says you are the one. Everyday she found a way out of the window to sneak out late"

Well l'm not a fan of romantic songs cause they just fucking bring out that devilish part of me that loses control of myself when l'm with my baby. But l have to tell my Mars though.

"Mars" I hold her hand more gently cause it had an lv on it and she looked at me and at and our hands. Her small habds were warm, small, soft.

I just fucking love my baby!

"Now l'm thinking back to when l was young. Back to the day when l was falling in love."

"I want to tell you that what l say today really disturbed me a lot Mars" our hands were still together and l had sat next to her on the bed as she looked at me like she was focusing on the words.
"When you wanted to fall off. Yes l know you got some bad shit that happened in your past. But l do wanna fucking see it haunt you down. You're so strong Mars. I've seen you fight assholes and dickheads so roughly and l know you're strong in the inside as well" she smiles after me saying this

"But l don't want your past to haunt you from enjoying your present" She looked at me in a surprised way and then went back to her focusing mind.
I know how she's thinking about why l've fucking changed cause l was a guy that never gave a damn about anyone. Shit about girls has never been my thing and has been like crap to me
Maybe ever since l met my Mars. That's how everything fucking changed and l gained this desire to know her, be friends with her until l deeply fucking madly fell in love with her!

"We are here for you Mars" l continue telling her with our hands perfectly fucking together! "I'm here for you my Mars and l never wanna see you that way. I just do wanna fucking lose you!" My voice starts cracking s l find my emotions driving back to when l saw Mars in that state as she was bleeding and when she wanted to fucking fall off the building. Many sad emotions just took over me and l would feel tears wanted to just burst into my face