BELIEVE

Chapter 22

Alicia's POV
Three days later
Oh God! What is happening? Why isn't Raven picking up my calls or answering my messages.
It's been three days and the quads haven't yet come to church.

Well they're like sisters.

I don't know but l feel like they are all going through some tough time in their lives. But l'm sure that their meeting wasn't by accident God has planned something for all of them.

Today l decided to use the other path to go home though l hate it a lot cause of it's behavior and the way those people present themselves. They are always smoking, drinking, bars in every direction, secular music playing, indescent wear and prostitutes with sugar daddies or young men. I tried preaching to them but they gave me no time and just starting cursing and abusing. But l just won't give up. I'll try one day if l'm not so busy at church and college.

I then pass a bar where drunkards were making the loudest noise around the place and chuckles from women.

God please be with your children

I look there and l notice someone. I peer and l find myself seeing

MARSAI!!!

smoking!!!

No this is not true! Maybe it's an imagination. I peer again and it was her!!

Oh my God!

I ran to her side and she sitting on the stairs of the bar. She had a bandage on her head and her knuckles too!
Oh my God! what happened!!???
She had some some black bandana, oversized black shirt with dirty words on it, sky blue baggy jeans and she was sitting in an inappropriate way.

Oh Jesus! Is this really Marsai!!
"Marsai" l sat but she just ignores as if no one was there. "Marsai look at me l'm talking to you" I say again but she still ignores me.

Oh God this can't be! I have to do something to get her attention. I then remove the cigarette from her hand.
She fails to respond to this. She then looks at me with tired bored eyes.
"Give it back" she points at it without looking at my face

Jesus!

What's going on in her life!

"No" I'm bit scared cause l literally don't know what's going on in her life but l also can't just leave her here feeling depressed and just SMOKING! to take the pain!

"Give it back" she says in a low though dangerous tone that really scares me.
But l have to be brave!
"No Marsai l can't see you do this to your life. What's going on? Are you some loser who just gives up on things that happen to you. Huh! Are you that weak. Have you forgotten that your God is always ther-" "Yes!! Yes! I've fucking forgotten the one who forgets me!" she stands up and yells "Yes! I've forgotten. All those stupid stupid fucking shit I was doing. The fasts, prayers, fellowship were all bullshit"

Please forgive her Jesus!!

"I trusted God" she says this in an emotional way as of she wanted to cry.

Oh this is so sad!

"I trusted God in my fucking life again but you know what! He wasn't there" she yells out while glowering. "Marsai stop insulting God. Listen to me l know what you're goin-"
"No!" she yells "You bitch knows nothing about me okay! I trusted God and all those crap and shitty values l followed. You said best and bigger things happen to those who believe and have God but now look at me" she points at herself and she looked so miserable like as if she was tired of life

"Haven't l already sacrificed a lot. Haven't l fucking prayed enough and done enough shit. All that was bollocks! Now just look at you slut and you've known God but you're just fucking alone. You've prayed and done whatever but nothing changes No!" she yells again. "All that God bloody crap was just bullshit and cum! Now if you have some respect for yourself. Piss off" she wipes her tears and then goes inside the bar as she slammed the door.