"Hey Kaylee?"
"Yea?" I said a little too anxiously.
"Do you think we could..... Still be friends? I know you probably hate me after everything and I realized how big of a part of my life you were and now that you are gone... I just... I don't want to lose you completely."
I just sat there staring at him.
He thought I hated him.
I chuckled coldly and stood up, turning so I was standing in front of him. His eyes grew sad and he looked down at his hands.
"I am not laughing at you." I stated, crossing my arms and tears welling up in my eyes, "I'm laughing at myself."
"What? Why?" he asked softly, standing up so he was looking down at me instead of the other way around. I opened my mouth to speak, but my cousins ran up and started climbing the tree next to the bench. I grabbed his hand, doing my best to ignore the familiar warm feeling that filled my body.
I towed him back into the building, all the way to the back of it, into the coat closet. I switched on the light and he stepped in, looking at me expectantly, his perfect eyes sparkling in the dim light.
"I have messed up so much. And you know what upsets me about that the most? You are my ex-boyfriend. I literally pushed you away when you did one thing I didn't like and I am such an idiot for doing that! I fucked everything in my life up, and it's all my fault, but you were the only good thing that happened! No, I don't want to be friends because it will just add to the long list of things that remind me of how much I screwed up! Your perfect! You were nothing but good to me and I threw you away quicker than I should ever do anything!" I ranted as I fought tears, looking him in the eyes, him doing the same to show me he was listening.
"Kaylee..."
"No, you did so much for me! You saved me! Not only did you stop me from killing myself, but showed me I'm not worthless! That I am important and that someone does really love me! I still don't know why the fuck I ended us, all I know is it is the biggest mistake I have ever made. Because I still love you." I finished and just let a single tear fall, holding back everything else.
Niall just stared at me, speechless while I reached for the doorknob. Before I could leave, Niall grabbed my arm and pulled my face to his, connecting our lips for the first time in way too long. I kissed him back, breaking any space between our bodies and we both explored each other with our hands, attempting to make up for the time we couldn't.
He pressed me gently against the doorframe, attacking my neck with his tongue and teeth, driving me crazy with the feelings I have missed so bad. He ran his hand down my arm until our hands met and he held it, his other holding my neck. I gripped the sides of his dress shirt and his lips released mine, leaving us both breathless.
"If you didn't know this by now, I love you." Niall whispered, wrapping his arm around my waist and kissing me again. "But, I'm so sorry."
"Niall, I said you didn't have to apologize."
"Yes, I do."
"Why?"
"Because I can't be with you." he said with sad eyes, loosening his grip on my hips.
