Forever (Andy Biersack Fanfiction)

Chapter 43: I Can't Fight For A Life I've Never Known

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"Thank you all for coming out tonight, we love you Manchester!"

We took our final bow with the rest of the bands and ran backstage.

"You ok Jade? You landed pretty hard back there."

"Yeah I'm fine Ricky, my back just hurts a little."

During our last song I decided to climb up the side of the stage, but me being me I missed a step, fell down and landed on my back.

"That was just plain stupid Jade, if you were any higher up you could have done some serious damage to yourself."

"Callum, I'm fine. I've done this type of thing before, I just so happened to miss a step."

The medical team walked over to me and told me that I had to be examined before they could let me walk out of here.

They took me into the dressing room where there was more light and lifted up the back of my shirt and checked my back.

"Ok Jade, you're alright. Your back is a little bruised but if it starts to cause you pain just take a couple of painkillers and it should help."

"Ok, thanks Mike."

I left the dressing room and got back onto the tour bus. I collapsed onto my bed immediately. I'd barely slept the night before because I was worrying about what was going to happen with Alex and thinking about how much I missed Andy.

Callum came over and gave me some water and painkillers, kissed me on the forehead and gave me a hug.

"Night sis, please get some rest tonight."

"I will, night Callum. I'll call you when I get back to the US."

As he left I took the pills, turned over and fell asleep...

"Jade? You gonna actually get up at some point today? You've already missed soundcheck."

"W-what?"

"You've slept through most of the day. It's almost time for you to begin getting ready for our last show."

"What the fuck?! Ricky, why didn't you wake me up sooner?!"

"I tried but you were out cold. Those painkillers were extra drowsy ones. He thought that you could use a good nights rest after last night."

"Bastard!"

"Hey, who would know that you'd sleep for so long. In fact I think this was your brain trying to make up for all the late and sleepless nights."

"Whatever.."

I quickly got out of bed and began rushing to get ready. This was the final show of the tour and this time tomorrow I'll be reunited with Andy.

I pulled on my black shorts and ripped black stockings with knee high black faux leather boots. Then I struggled into my black and purple corset top and sloppily fastened and tightened it at the back.

I then moved onto my makeup. First I washed and dried my face to remove any dirt and then covered it in foundation. I then lightly brushed some pressed powder on top of the foundation to prevent shininess. After that I used black and purple eye shadow to create a smokey eye look and liquid liner on my top eyelid and an eyeliner penicil on my waterline. I finished off my eyes with a coat of mascara on my eyelashes (top and bottom). I finalized my look with purple lipstick and a coat of clear lip gloss.

I then brushed my hair before back combing it and spraying it with hairspray to keep it in place.

When I was satisfied with my work I left the bathroom and opened my suitcase and took out my charm bracelet and locket. I always felt like Andy and my Dad were with me when I wore them.

"Well, I'm ready to party."

I announced as I walked into the main sitting area.

"Well someone's in a good mood."

"Its the last show of the tour Tom. As much as I've loved it, I'm relieved to be going home."

"Relieved to be going home, or relieved to be seeing Andy? Haha am I right?"

He nudged James with his elbow and they both laughed.

I rolled my eyes and them and went to go sit on a wall outside like I did with Andy.

As I sat on the wall I began to crave the smell of smoke. I hated Andy smoking but I missed him too much to care. I missed the smell of smoke and whiskey that Ashley bought for him on his breath.

I missed what I assumed would be the first of many tattoos on his arms and the piercing on his lip.

I missed his black hair which he's attempting to grow out and I certainly missed those dazzling blue eyes. When he looks at me I feel as if he is piercing into my soul and exposing my innermost thoughts and feelings...I missed him entirely.

"Jade?"

"Yeah?"

"You coming inside?"

"Already?"

"Yeah, people are already queuing up. Doors open in 30 minutes."

"What? We have way longer than that."

"Jade, you've been sat up here for hours. I thought you were in some kind of a trance."

"I was.."

"Andy?"

"Yeah"

"He's gonna ask you out when you get back."

"No way, he's just broken up with Juliet and I'm pretty sure he sees me as a friend."

"I'm pretty sure he see's you are more than that."

"Why, has he said something to you?"

"No, he doesn't need to. I can see it on him as clearly as I can see it on you."

"But the breakup.."

"Jade, he didn't fight for their relationship because you're single. If he really wanted to be with her he'd have tried working it out with her."

"I doubt that.."

"Well don't, I know love when I see it."

"Whatever you say Ricky."

"C'mon, it's getting cold out here. Let's go rock our asses off."

We laughed and he helped my down from the wall before linking his arm with mine and guiding me inside...