Love caught up in my throat(Nagisa x Kaede)

11

A couple of days has passed since the incident. And I've taken to distancing myself a bit with Nagisa. This caused him to worry about me sure, but kept ignoring and avoiding him.

This caused my coughing of blood to lessen and I haven't vomited out flowers for a while. This makes me feel a lot better

I can't help but notice I've been a lot more angry lately too.

The pain and stress caused me to have less patience. But I try not to show it too much, I snap easily, but I apologize just as fast.

My anxiety for my plans is growing. As well as the pain in my throat and the lonely ache in my heart.

I just want this to end already! I'm going to end this soon. He's going to die soon

And then afterwards I'll apologize to everyone for lying to them for months. And if Nagisa still liked me then I'll ask him out. The pain in my throat isn't the only thing shitty though. The pain in the back of my neck makes everything worse.

But like everyday, I endure.

I sit quietly in my desk, keeping my tight smile on my face. Well aware of Nagisa's eyes boring holes on the back of my head. I ignore him and focus on Koro-sensei's lectures.

His words are kind of a blur to me. There was ringing in my ear as I watched his tentacles pointing, moving. That permanent grin on his yellow octopus head.

My hand twitched for the anti-koro-knife under my desk. I reached down and traced it with my finger... smooth, rubbery, also hard and kind of cold against my finger. I really want to throw it and impale the back of his head so he would feel the pain I'm going through

But he'd catch it and simply tell me off for interrupting his lesson. I have a much better plan than that anyway.

"...... de.... Ka... Kae... Kaede.... KAEDE!" I snapped out of it when someone yelled my name(my alias actually)

"Ah! Yes?" I turned my head to who ever it was and internally cursed my luck. "Ah! Nagisa" I forced a smile. I zoned out so much I didn't realized the lesson ended and everyone was going home

"Are you ok?" His beautiful blueberry blue eyes showed worry for me.

"I'm fine" I hurried stood up and started packing up.

"Umm" he said. "Uhh, well.. you know um" he looked embarrassed, his eyes was shifting everywhere. "Uh, yes?" I smiled at him. The boy looked even more nervous

Wait what's up with this atmosphere?

Wait, we're alone now?!

And why does he look so nervous? Blushing so cutest...

"I was wondering" he started.

Oh no, I can't let him continue. He's going to ask me on a date, that's what always happens in scenes like these in shows! Guy corners girl, guy looks embarrassed but determined, guy asks her out.

I can feel my heart pounding at the thought of Nagisa asking me out to go on a date with him. As well as the return of those thorns and flowers in my throat... damn it.

"I have to go Nagisa" I said, putting on my bag and walking past him

"Why have you been avoiding me?"

I stopped. "Huh?" I turned to look at him. "You've been distancing yourself from me for days, I noticed, I'm not blind" he told me.

"No I haven't" I lied stiffly. "Yes you have" he pointed out. "What's wrong? Is it something I did?"

Oh here we go with the, 'is it me? Did I do something wrong?'. You see this trope a lot in romantic comedies. I feel really guilty for making him feel like he did something wrong, and he looks so cute worrying over me.

I took a deep breath. "It's not... something you did"

"Something I said then?"

"No"

"Does it involve me?"

"Kinda" I answered blushing. Why do I feel so awkward?

Nagisa cleared his throat, and scratched the back of his head "Um"

"If there's nothing else, I gotta-"

"Dyowannagoouchwichme?!" He suddenly rapidly and loudly bellows. "W-what?!" I blushed darkly. I heard it alright but u could also be wrong!

"I- uhh, I asked" he slapped his forehead. "I- umm.. What I wa-wanted.. To- ask--what I did ask was" he stuttered. "If you'd like to go out with me.. on Saturday"

My pulse quickened. "Like, a date?"

"If that's what you want" Nagisa mumbled. "If that'll make you happy then.... "

I, without thinking, instantly said "SURE THING!" In an extremely loud voice.

Good thing no one else was here.

Otherwise we'd get teased endlessly.

"Re-really?" Nagisa looked like he couldn't believe I would agree.

"Why not?" I smiled more.

"Oh, great! S-see ya" he pulled on the straps of his bag and power walked out of there.

I giggled as he hurried pass me.

I can't wait for Saturday