Love caught up in my throat(Nagisa x Kaede)

6

I know I said there were only me, Isogai, Maehara, Chiba, and Okuda in the classroom- Karma left to buy milk - but I still searched for Kaede's green- now I know is dyed- hair. I felt disappointed and worried when I couldn't spot her. I reasoned to myself that it's still early so that's why she's not here yet.

I went to sit on my desk and just, started drawing to pass the time. I drew landscapes and houses mostly, sometimes rooms. Today I found myself sketching a human figure on my notebook. No apparent reason, my hands just started moving on it's own and my brain decided it wanted to draw a human.

A human girl with long hair. Using my pen, I colored her hair with black ink. And when I was done, I blushed and hit myself when I realized that my sketch of the girl looked distinctively like Kaede.

"I gotta get rid of this before anyone sees" I mumbled.

"Wow, who's that Nagisa?"

I let out a small cry and whipped my head back only to meet Okuda. She was looking at the drawing studiously, a small polite smile on her lips. Her eyes showed me that she was trying to remember something. "N-no one" I excused and closed the notebook.

"She's pretty. I've never seen you draw before Nagisa, you have good hands" she complimented. I smiled awkwardly, relieved that she didn't pieced together that the girl I drew was actually Kaede.

But then again, nobody else knows that her real hair color is black. And no one's seen her with her hair down either so. That makes sense..

"Goooooood morning!" Came a girl's cheerful voice. The door slams open and in steps, you guessed it, Kaede.

She looked as pale and tired as last night but her bright smile and wide eyes averted everyone's attention from her complexion and instead has them focusing on her bubbly attitude today. "Hi Kaede" Okuda greeted walking over to the green haired girl.

I watched them converse, feeling a lightness in my heart. I don't understand this

I've always liked Kaede as a friend. She's determined, sweet, kind, bright and kind of a klutz, which is cute. When I look at her, I sometimes find myself comparing her to a hamster, especially when she's eating and stuffing her cheeks.

How come I feel different today? I look at her everyday and it's always been the same. I feel compassion and a bond of camaraderie for her because of the situation we were thrust in.

Do you know how stressful it is to be a minor preparing for exams, high school, college, our future, training to become an assassin, and saving the world all at once?

Anyway, today I noticed something different.

Did she get prettier? I mean nothing's changed. She has her hair the way she always ties it, she's wearing her uniform, she's smiling.

What's the difference? She looks the same as she always does.

Except today I feel like something really is different. I think she got prettier in my eyes? That's weird. Why is it weird? I don't know!

Kaede

I could feel Nagisa's burning gaze on me. Which made my heart flutter in my chest, and my cheeks burn. I tried to contain my glee at his attention and focused on whatever it was Okuda was telling me.

Turns out she was talking about Karma. "---was really nice to me, he defended me from some bullies from the main building" she told me with a slight blush. "He looked really angry when he heard them mocking my glasses, he threatened to snap their hands" she laughed giddily. I kept my smile on, even though I felt sorry for her.

Okuda likes Karma... a lot. And I understand why. He's handsome, smart, and rich, also girls like her typically fall for the bad boys. But sorry for her, Karma doesn't see her the way she wants him to.

He's gay and is into his president perfect counterpart from the main building. If Okuda likes bad boys... Then this bad boy likes assholes.

"Do you think I have a chance?" She asked me.

My eyes shifted to Nagisa, my heart's desire. I ask myself that too, do I have a chance?

I didn't wanna hurt Okuda's feelings. She's a sweet girl. But I also don't want her to end up like me

I don't want her to have the Hanahaki disease.

Pining for unrequited love resulted in me throwing up flowers and having difficulty sucking in air because of the roots growing in my lungs.

"Ummm" I trailed, forcing myself to remove my attention from Nagisa.

Luckily I was saved by Kurahashi who wanted to show off a couple of butterflies she caught in a jar. I let her lead me away.

I threw a glance at Okuda's expression, she didn't appear too bothered though, and waved good bye to me as I was led outside

"I wanna see too" Nagisa decided, following us. He smiled at me, making my heart flutter again.

He had such a beautiful smile! I want to see his beautiful smile every day! So pretty!