Love caught up in my throat(Nagisa x Kaede)

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"T-the keys are in my purse's front pocket" I weakly said, blood running down my mouth, some bloody petals on my dress. Nagisa yanked the purse off me as soon as he set me down and hurriedly unlocked my door. Kicking it open, he carried me again and went inside

"W-what do you want me to do?" He asked me, putting me down on a sofa in the living room. "I-" before I could finish I started coughing once more. On instinct I ran to the bathroom and removed the toilet lid, lowering my head I forced myself to vomit

Vomit everything. All the food I ate, and the flowers filling my throat. I felt and probably looked disgusting. Nagisa came inside and pulled my hair back for me, while his other hand rubbed roothing circles on my back. "K-kaede.." He sounded so worried for me, it broke my heart

Poor Nagisa must be so confused and concerned and scared and..it's all my fault. We were having so much fun and I ruined it.

I shouldn't have said yes to this date. I should have come up with an excuse, lied. Our wonderful night ended humiliatingly with me vomiting flowers in the toilet, bloody and sweaty.

"I'm fine Nagisa" I reassured him, trying to smile. He looked doubtful. "Kaede" he tried to reach for my face but I pushed his hand away. "Could you pass me the face towel?" I pointed at the wet face towel hanging near the mirror. He nodded and got it and was about to give it to me, before he turned on the faucet and wetted it some more

And when I thought he was finally going to give it to me he decided to wipe my face instead. I sat there, on the cold bathroom floor while the boy I love wiped away the blood and traces of vomit from my face.

I didn't feel disgusting anymore.

He was looking deeply into my eyes while doing this, making me blush and my already weak heart to beat fast again..but I forced myself to calm down and end the moment by looking away.

"Can you explain to me what's happening to you?" he asked me. I bit my lip nervously, should I tell him?

"You're suffering Kaede, and I want to help you" he told me. This boy really knows the right words to use on me. And it worked. "You do?" I asked hesitantly. "Of course!" He exclaimed. "You're a close friend, and I care about you, so much!"

It's sweet that you want to help but what if you can't? This is the Hanahaki disease after all. Caused by a love so strong it made roots in your heart and flowers grow to reach your lungs. A pathetic unrequited love.

"Kaede please" he placed his hands on my shoulders. "I'm really worried. You coughed out blood and threw up, not to mention all these flowers.." Hold on. How has Nagisa not pieced togrther that I have the Hanahaki disease? He's supposed to be really smart.

"Nagisa, have you ever heard about the Hanahaki disease?" I asked him.

"I, might have" he said with a pause.

"It's when the victim coughs up flower petals when they suffer from one sided love, and It ends when the beloved returns their feelings" I explained the basics of it "but romantic love only, strong friendship is not enough" I added "Hanahaki also ends when the victim dies, it can be cured through surgical removal, but when the infection is removed, the victim's romantic feelings for their love also disappear"

"O-oh" was all he could say. I mean hinestly, what else can he say?

"How long has this been going on?" He asked me. "I few months maybe" I answered. "You've been enduring this for a few months?" He looked at me sympathetically. "It wasn't this bad before, but recently it's gotten worse"

Maybe it's because my love for Nagisa grew stronger.

"Have you told them yet?" He asked. "Whoever this person is, do they know?"

"Probably not" I said. "I don't know what they think of me" I said while looking at him. "They probably like me but-"

"Then tell them!" Nagisa said. "You said the disease can be cured if the unrequited love was reciprocated right?"

"It's not that easy-"

"I know it's a little scary but Kaede you're suffering! I can't bare to see you this way any longer" he gently shook me, eyes holding immense sadness. He feels THIS strongly for me? Wow. "And if the jerk turns you down then screw him, he's not worth it if he doesn't see how great you are"

Nagisa, YOU are the great one here.

"But Nagisa-"

"how expensive is the surgery? We can fall for surgery as an alternative if he rejects, I'll help you! Whatever it takes Kaede"

No way am I doing that! I don't want to lose my feelings for Nagisa. "It's fine Nagisa" I tell him gently. Look at how worried he is for me, this isn't good for my fragile heart. All this love and concern I am getting

"Kaede-"

"Nagisa!" I said loud, cupping his face. "S-sorry" he whispered. "No, thank you for everything" I said. "The evening, the fun we had, taking care of me, worrying for me, you're really my best ever friend"

"Right" I heard him whisper "Friends"

"The person I love isn't aware I love him, but I'm not going to confess my love yet. There's still so much I have to do, like killing our teacher and saving the world" I said with a chuckle. "With everything on my plate, I don't have time for dating-"

"But your life's on the line!" Nagisa said.

"The flowers haven't filled my lungs and the roots aren't embedded deeply in my heart" probably, maybe. "Besides, my love for him isn't THAT intense that it's physically preventing me from breathing" I joked.

Nagisa still looked doubtful.

"Oh look at the time!" I exclaimed. "It's almost midnight, your mom's probably really worried for you" I got up off the floor and held out my hand. "I'll walk you to the door"

"Kaede-"

"Thank you really Nagisa for everything! Good night Nagisa!" I rapidly said pushing him to the door. Once he was out, I slammed the door and locked it.

Pressing my back against the door, I slowly slid down to the floor.

I'm tired.

I just want this all to end.

The back of my neck hurt again, but I ignored it. I have more stuff to worry about.