Imagines of All Kinds

Is That So Hard?

"I just feel so weird about it all. Like the majority of the guys I talk to just end up being so unclear and it's so frustrating! Like, do you like me? Is this a date? Are you wanting us to be a couple?" I continue to rant to my two best friends, Grace and Emily. 

"I totally understand that! Like I went out with a guy last night, but then I don't think he actually said it was a date and he just looked so uncomfortable the whole night. I just wish guys were clear nowadays!" Grace chimes in.

"Yes. What's so hard about actually saying your feelings?" Emily sighs in frustration.

"That's the problem. Guys don't want to commit to having emotions about you until you tell them your feelings." Grace volleys back with.

"I mean... if a guy came up to me with a bouquet of flowers and clearly asked me on a date, I think I would be too in shock to say no. Like, I would have to say yes," I confess. Grace and Emily both chuckle and I hit them lightly on the arms. "I'm serious. That tells me they went to the effort of getting flowers and then are clearly saying they want to go out with me. That's clear expression of their feelings!" 

"I mean..." Grace starts.

"That's fair. At least they would be clear," Emily finishes.

"See! I'm telling you, I just need some sort of communication. How hard is that?" I sigh, but also genuinely asking. 

"It would be nice, but it's just wishful thinking when it comes to guys," Grace backs in with.

I sigh as we all get up to make our way to eat lunch. Why is that so hard to ask for?

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Two days later, I'm in my school's library, working on homework. Before I know it, there's a body standing right next to me, which causes me to jump slightly.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you!" Shawn, a boy in my grade is somewhat crouching next to me now, leveling us out. I put my hand over my heart for two reasons:

1) He really did scare me and I'm trying to calm myself

2) I've had a crush on him for years and he's suddenly very close to me and I need to get my racing heartbeat back to normal 

"It's fine. I just didn't see you come over here," I try to evenly get out, hoping he doesn't notice my inward freak out.

"I just had a quick question for you, if you have the time," he's still crouching, but it's pretty cute. Well, anything this boy does is cute in my eyes.

"Yeah, of course. What is it?" What is happening right now? We don't have any classes together.

"Well... you see... I-" he stops talking, slightly chuckling, smiling down at the ground. I don't want to try to push him, so I just wait, nervously smiling. 

"I... I heard the conversation you were having with Grace and Emily a few days ago and so I got you these," and with that, he pulls out a beautiful bouquet of daisies that have apparently been hiding behind his back, handing them to me. Slightly open-mouthed, I take them and can feel my stomach start to swirl. "And I wanted to know if you'd like to go on a date with me?" His hands are now intertwined in front of him, somewhat nervously ringing them together. 

"Really?" I don't even know how I get a word out.

"Yes. I like you. I have liked you for a while, but... I've been worried and I just-," he stops, taking a deep breath. "I just want to make it clear that I do like you and I want to get to know you better. I hope you say yes to a date because I have a great idea," he's smiling, but I can tell he's just as nervous as I am right now. My stomach feels like it's doing an entire Olympic gymnastic routine. 

The words almost get stuck in my throat, but I manage to get out an excited, "I would love to." I can see him visibly relax and then the cutest smile crosses over his face, seemingly taking up the whole surface area.

"Awesome... Awesome," he's smiling widely as I feel is happening on my face. "I'll text you later with the details, yeah?" He starts moving backwards as he's asking me. 

"I look forward to it," I answer, still smiling like an idiot.

"I look forward to you looking forward to me textin-" his words abruptly stop as he accidentally walks right into one of the tables. I chuckle lightly, my hand going to cover my mouth.

"Are you okay?" I call out softly. He turns back towards me, his cheeks a slight rosy pink.

"Yes, I'm okay. Are you okay?" I chuckle lightly again, nodding. 

"I'm fine."

"Good good... I'm just gonna go now, so I don't run into anything else in my great exit," he smirks at me slightly before turning on his heel and disappearing. I smile again. I look back down at the bouquet of flowers he gave me, giving them a little sniff, falling back into my chair, smiling like an idiot.