𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐓, xavier thorpe

twenty. jealousy, jealousy

i made my first ever fanart (?) for my fanfic eeeeee. it's the picture above and i am very proud of it even if i know it's kinda bad. anyways, enjoy the Christmas special chapter!

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XAVIER.

"Luna! come back!", i tried to call after as she walked out the art shed. "Luna! please! can we talk this out?", i asked, following out the shed but to find her running back already to the school grounds. i sighed in defeat, going back into the shed and slamming the door in anger.

what the hell was going on?

i knew i haven't been avoiding her, and i honestly did not know what she was talking about. i have heard people saying rumors that Luna and i broke up (which i think she is considering), but i didn't think it was that bad.

what made her think i was avoiding her?

now that i tried to think of it, i couldn't remember much from the past days. it was all like a fast blur. the only things i could vividly recall is going to Principal Weems' office with Luna and sleeping after dinner. it was weird cause i don't forget easily. i could even remember my dreams after i wake up, which most people cannot do easily.

what was wrong with me? was i hallucinating or losing my mind?

thoughts and thoughts ran through my head as i went over to a new blank canvas. splashing paint continuously with my paintbrush, anger towards myself coming out and creating art.

i hope Luna and i can resolve this problem.

cause for the first time in a long time, i actually love someone.

for the first time, someone loves me back truly and genuinely.

for the first time, i was able to trust someone with my secrets, thoughts, and opinions.

and seeing Luna angrily leaving the shed after our argument, it broke my heart and shattered it into pieces.

what was i gonna do now?

i wanted to fix it, even if i know none of us are really at fault. and if i was going to do that...

i need to find out first what she meant about me avoiding her, and why i couldn't remember much from the past days.

was someone messing with Luna and i?

later that day, during dinner, i sat with Ajax, Kent and Killian. i knew Luna and Killian were still not in speaking terms since their fight at the Weathervane, but avoiding him would get me mixed up in their cousin issues, and i didn't plan on doing that.

"so what happened with you and Luna?", Kent asked, stuffing some carrot sticks into his mouth. i shrugged my shoulders, not wanting to answer him. "did you guys really... break up?", Ajax asked sadly, patting my shoulder. i shook my head, "no, no. we just... had a little argument. that's all."

"oh, i see.", Ajax nodded.

Kent spoke up, mouth still chewing the carrots, "good, cause i thought you guys were done like for real."

"and since when did you eat carrots?", i asked, pointing out his unusual habit. he shrugged his shoulder, "trying something new."

"didn't you use to call Luna 'carrots'?", Ajax recalled, chuckling in amusement. Kent smiled, "oh yeah, i did. then she threw me straight to a wall which is fair."

"i remember she told us that but did she really throw you into a wall?", i asked. the whole Kent being thrown into a wall story was really amusing but part of me questioned if a smaller girl like Luna could actually shove Kent who was slightly bigger than her.