Strings Attached • JIARA•

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JJ's POV:

Kie left and I was fine. I'm always fine. I just missed her like crazy. I did remember telling her that I loved her when I was drunk but I was drunk and she probably didn't take me seriously.

So I got on a plane to go to her college and tell her how I felt. I couldn't just let her date fucking Dylan without telling her how I felt. I don't want to end up like Andrew watching Kie marry Dylan and have kids and I'm just stuck on the cut miserable. I only want Kie to have my babies. I mean if she wants babies.

I practiced this speech the whole way there but when I saw her, my mind went blank. I couldn't remember it. I just started talking.

"Kie, I've fucked up so many times and I'm sorry for that. I really fucked up on New Year's Eve but you have to understand that I've never been loved by anyone before. I don't even know what the fuck love is. Love is fucking stupid. You give someone your heart and trust them not to break it. I would never want to give someone that much power but apparently I don't have a choice. I don't know what love is but I'm damn sure it's exactly what I feel when I'm with you. I love you, Kie. I've loved you from the minute I met you. Our whole arrangement was never going to work because I was already madly in love with you. And I have to tell you because I don't want to end up like Andrew" I said out of breath

Kie was in shock by my words. I was in shock. I didn't expect to say all that. She wasn't responding. I just fucked this up so badly. She had tears in her eyes and she said, "JJ"

She didn't speak after that and she just looked at me as she had a few tears fall down her cheeks.

"I love you, too" She said crying while she smiled and she couldn't get anything else out

I thought it was adorable. She hugged me and I held her in my arms so tightly. I never wanted to let go. But I moved enough so I could wipe heads tears and kiss her. I've missed her lips so much. After the kiss, she hugged me again and whispered, "I've missed this is much"

"Me too" I said back to her

Her roommates were all freaking out and I realized one of them got a video. She looked at me and said, "I want to do a lot more than just kiss you but first I need to go end things with Dylan. I'll be back soon"

She left the dorm room and I went to her room and just sat on her bed and waited for her to get back. About twenty minutes later, she walked in and crawled up onto her bed, and kissed me. We were making out and she said, "My roommates all left. We are completely alone"

I crashed my lips back into hers and I lifted her shirt off as I kissed her neck and worked my way down to her chest as I took off her bra. She had her hand resting on my chest and she moved it down to my lower abdomen to take my shirt off. She was over my ribs where they were nasty. We were making out and I made a slight noise and she knew I was in pain.

I broke the kiss and took a step back. I realized she was going to see my bruises. She's seen them before but nothing this bad. Before there's been one or two. This time I was covered and there were scars from the fight.

She realized that I really didn't want her to see me like this. She took a breath and said, "I'm sorry.. We don't have to do this right now if you don't want to"

The thing is that I wanted to. So fucking bad. I've wanted this for a long time. I want her right now. I love Kie and I trust her more than anyone else.

"I want to, Kie but I just want you to know it's not pretty" I said being honest

"Worse than the hot tub?" She asked and I nodded yes

"If you want, we can turn the lights off" She suggested trying to make me more comfortable

I looked at her and shook my head no as I looked at the floor. I lifted my shirt over my head to reveal my torso to Kie. She look heartbroken when she saw the bruises, just like I knew she would. She gently hugged me and then she kissed me.

Our kiss broke and she looked into my eyes. She then so gently kissed the bruise on my collarbone from my dad. She did that to all the bruises on my abdomen. She was so gentle and careful. It didn't hurt at all and once she kissed them all she stood back up.

I joked and said, "You were just getting to the good area" as she was near the waistband of my joggers

She laughed and said, "Don't worry, I'm not stopping yet"

She kissed my lips and got down on her knees and pulled the remainder of my clothes off as she inserted my dick in her mouth. We were having fun but this time it was so different. We've had sex together way too many times to count but this felt totally different. Like it was our first time together. It was so intimate. I wouldn't want to feel this with anyone but Kie.

We were both sweating and breathless as we laid in her bed. She looked at me and I said, "I love you"

"I love you too, J" She said kissing my lips

"So I was thinking that maybe we could make up a new arrangement. But this time you'd be my girlfriend and the only rule would be not to break each other's hearts"

"Deal" She said and we sealed the deal with a kiss

"I have no idea how to be a good boyfriend but I promise you that I'll try my best. I'm just warning you that I might fuck up every now and again but that doesn't mean I don't love you"

"J, I know we weren't officially dating during our arrangement but we basically were. You were the perfect unofficial boyfriend. We'll figure this relationship out together"

We laid in her bed just talking for almost an hour before we got up and got dressed as her roommates would be coming back. We just were hanging out in her bed and she was doing homework and I was bored scrolling on social media.

I snuck a kiss or two in and then it turned into a whole makeout sesh. Once the kiss broke I said, "I've always hated kissing girls like this. I usually just wanted to get to the fucking part. But then we started hooking up and all I wanted to do was kiss you. It was so hard for me not to kiss you at certain times"

She laughed and she didn't believe me because she thought I was such a good kisser. We eventually got up and she went to the dining hall and got us food. It wasn't awful but it wasn't great either. Her roommate was spending the night at her boyfriend's so Kie and I were alone. We definitely took advantage of that.

The next morning, Kie had class and I chilled in her dorm bedroom. She texted me to meet her in some building and I managed to find my way. She introduced me to a few more of her friends as her boyfriend. I loved being called that.

"I don't have to go to my other class today. Today I am all yours. What do you want to do?" She asked and my brian had many ideas