The Cleansing Of Darkness

Chapter 7

A huge situation blew up a while ago, Cess was called out on some stuff they did during a fan jam event and apparently they cheated on their boyfriend with someone named Doryan i don't exactly know the whole situation or who is telling the truth ( I would put Doryan's info in but that would be a lot of screenshots and I don't exactly want to get into personal details with him but I believe his side over the two girls. ( Cess was the one who ran the Sally Acorn account and Chaos channel if I were to be brutally honest I'm glad Cess is no longer friends with Emily, they caused some issues with me and I'm sure they also caused problems for other fans so I'd say Karma hurts like a b**** at this point. I was almost black mailed into submission by Cess/ Sally Acorn, I was to be silenced by her but they ended up getting the jump on me before. So now the tables had turned. Usually I would feel bad but seeing her do the same to others before me and even after before she herself got the same treatment by Emily, I can't feel sorry for her I just can't find it. Forgiveness isn't easily won for something like what she had done. )

Here is what Cess said:
I'm typing this up as a response rather than anything else- as I was streaming while all of these accusations were made. This is all very traumatizing for me so please excuse any errors

In 2017 at a sonic event, I found myself in a situation where in my sleep, Doryan Nelson was cuddling into me, with his front pressed against the back of me when I woke up in a very close and affectionate manner, arms wrapped around me.
I was deeply uncomfortable and scared when it occurred.

To give further context, during that trip, the person I was previously dating fell through as we broke up and did not stay with me, and I was left without somewhere to sleep- I was offered to sleep in the living room of a friend's hotel room the first night, which I did. The second night, because I was a part of the staff of the convention, I spent a lot of the day with Doryan and the rest of the staff, particularly Doryan, as he was my only close friend there and I have severe social anxiety. Throughout the day, I confided in him that I was very in love with my ex still and suffering an immense amount because of it. Doryan comforted me by rubbing my back as I tried not to cry, recounting a horrible breakup that had happened less than a week ago.
I stayed with a group of friends a lot of that day, watching Doryan finish up assets for the convention on his pc and giving feedback. Neither of us were in the mood to go out with others, as again, I was hurting a lot, so we stayed working on the con. Later that night we went down to help with the setup. We did not leave the venue until about 4 am, where we went to get breakfast with a big group. I stated to Doryan I was exhausted throughout our meal, laying my head on the table for the majority of the time as I had not slept more than an 3 hours in the 2 days of travel. Everyone finished, and because now it was past 5 am, I felt it was too late to return to the room at a different hotel, so I was offered to stay at the staff room in a mattress on the floor. Everyone in that room was sharing a bed with someone and the only person I knew well was Doryan. He offered me to sleep in the bed, and I accepted as I felt I had nowhere else to go and I trusted him very much.

I, for a long time, have had sleep terrors and nightmares throughout the night and I tend to wake up often. As you might have seen in his texts, he says I cuddled into him in my sleep, which he accepted while being 100 percent awake, and that I woke up and said I was okay/alright, which he interpreted as consent to the situation. In a dm, I clarified to him that I was saying I was okay because, in a groggy state, I believed he was comforting me from the nightmares that often would make me sleep talk or wake up suddenly and shake. These days, I truly do not remember those times I woke up, as I was incredibly groggy and exhausted, but I believe that consent cannot be given by someone who is groggy regardless.

I woke up fully at around 7 am after about an hour or so of sleeping to him spooning me, pressed up against me. Once I was fully conscious, I turned myself around to get him to release me and to look at him. He was wide awake, and I was stunned and confused. He laughed very quietly and I whispered that it was "fuck o clock in the morning"; it was super late, I was exhausted, and I didn't understand why he had been on me. He proceeded to kiss my face, pull away and say "I really like you, Ceci." Stunned, all I could muster was a "shut up, go to sleep.." as he laughed again and proceeded to get comfortable, away from me this time, to go to sleep.
I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep for a few minutes while he dozed off to avoid confrontation in the room we were sharing with multiple other people.