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Chapter 2 - Samantha

Welcome to Green Haven.

We have been driving since 3 hrs, it's now midnight and as dad is folding back the map he was using I am certain Green Haven is going to be the new home. Atleast for a while if things go well.

He stops in front of a small and beautiful house which makes me think of possibilities for good memories.

He is very much sober now. Getting out of the truck, dad looks at the fading purple bruise on my arm and then says, "Here's the key. Get our things out of the truck and go inside, I'll be back in some time I need to check on some things. This is one of my old friends house we are going to be staying here from now on." And then he leaves. Just like that.

The sadness in my chest just go on growing, it never ceases. I don't know why but I look towards the sky and mumble the question I have been repeating all these years, will I be ever happy again, mum? Was I so bad that you left me? I guess I am unlovable.

Wiping away the tears , I grab our bags and head towards the house. It's a small yet warm house, I can work with that. The kitchen is clean and pretty, there is a room towards the end of the hall and a stairs leading up to the floor. The room above is pretty cozy and I start setting up the only things I have. I have never had a phone so after emptying the bag and placing the picture on the desk beside the bed, I lay down the exhaustion catching up and just like that it gets dark.

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I woke up to the banging coming from the hall. I try to getup as slowly as I can, not hurting my arm , and make my way down the stairs. Dad is surprisingly sober and rummaging the entire place to find god knows what. I try to be soft and ask, "What is it dad?"

He stops his search and looks back at me. It hurts me that the man who looked at me with the most affectionate eyes and called me his little baby is no more. Pushing back the tears I stay rooted at my place as he ignores my question and resumes his search. He mumbles something a while later and tells me " I have enrolled you in Erelong academy, it's a 20 min walk from here. You will be starting there tomorrow, I have kept some school supplies near the couch." I am standing near the stairs facing his back listening to him and he finds whatever he was looking for and then he is out of the house.

I walk towards the couch to find some books and bag and carry them back to my room. This is how he does, he hurts me when he has his negative moments and then acts like nothing happened when he is sober.

My dad was a caring man. His soft brown eyes held love but now he can't even look straight into my eyes and I am afraid if I try I could never find a tiny bit of love in the depths of the hatred that his eyes gives me now.

Once I arrange a few things in my bag, I make my way down towards the kitchen to find something to eat. I don't have a big appetite as having food to eat was a rare opportunity, but I always had a little at Lisa's which made me go through the day. Grabbing a banana from the tray which I am assuming dad stocked , I head back to my room.

I need to look for a job. It helps me pay for my little needs. I lay back on the bed and I am feeling nervous about tomorrow. Will I be okay? Will they treat me good? Will I make friends? I always felt sad that I never had a friend. Whenever I saw a group of friends at Lisa's, I hoped they stay like that forever and not like me whose existence never mattered. It was as if I am invisible.

I love books. I have read many books in the library back at orchid hollow whenever I had time. It made me dream of things which I never had.

Friendship, care, trust, love. Will I ever experience any of those?

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Annyeong!
Hope you guys are doin good♥️
I am aiming for a triple update today!

Tell me something that you have read and it have stuck with you ever since.

My top three are -
1. The scene in Twisted Hate where Alex tells Josh that ,
"The only reason someone would make an unprompted confession like that is because they want a fresh start, and the only reason they'd want a fresh start when the relationship is already going well is because they realized something."

2. This beautiful line from Terms and Conditions when Declan tells Iris,
"“Don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“Downplay your experience because someone else had it harder than you.”

3.A cheesyy one from The Fine Print, where Rowan says about Zahra that
'She has the magnetism of the Bermuda Triangle, and I'm a lost plane desperate to land.'🥴♥️

Dead. Here lies me.