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35. the lifestyle

Everyone was excited about the race. Both Lewis and George were excited about today qualification, because the race in Brazil was one that they really liked. And I was excited too. I mean, that it's good for the team and the season will be over soon, so we have to enjoy it while we still can, right?

"I can hear you thinking, Emilia" I hear Toto says besides me while crossing his arms looking at the screen. The last free practice it's almost done "No, I'm not thinking" I say back at him and he looks at me

"Yes, you're in silent but I still can hear you thinking. You now how I know it?" Toto asks and I shake my head "Because you're playing with that ring again" he says pointing to the ring on my finger. My engage ring. "And you always do that when your nervous or can't stop thinking about something rather than paying attention to the practice... so you better start talking young lady" he says looking at the screen again and I smile a little

"Carlos made a mistake last night" I start but he interrupted me "People make a lot of mistakes all the time... the first mistake that made the guy who gave you that right was to date you" he jokes and then smiles at me "What Carlos did?"

I know it's dumb to be worry for this, but... I felt so anxious since I found out people noticed the ring on my hand. "He posted a screenshot of us and people saw the ring" I explain him and he nods. "So?" he asks again. Yes, Toto... so? "You're gonna reject the guy now?" the adds when I don't answer him and I look at him a little confused

"No, why would I do that?" I say and he lets out a laught "You tell me, people found out that you're engage because Carlos posted a photo of you, so what's the problem? You have to ask for their blessing or something? I though the only blessing you needed was from me" He says looking at me quickly  

"I already have your blessing" I said proud to him "I can take it back if I want to, you know?" he replies "What he thinks about it?" Toto adds and I let out a sigh "He felt so bad after we found out... but I think that deep down he felt relieved somehow" I explain him. Pierre was the first one to found out about people saying I'm engage... He send me the link to a website while we were having dinner at the hotel.

"And what you think about it?" He asks now and I look down... what I think about it? How I feel about? "I think I feel a little relieved too" I admit shyly and I notices that Toto smiles at me "That's good... you never should feel bad for loving someone, you know?" he says before sighing and I nod

"We say this job it's the hardest but this isn't any different to any job or relationship of the rest. His jobs it's to drive around the world and that takes a lot of his mental straing, and you... you have the worst job in the world, young lady... you follow me around the world." He says to me while he takes of his headsets "Even when I don't understand why you two keep it like a secret... I like the way he looks at you. The same way he looked at you the day I introduce you two... and it reminds me of the way I look at my wife" I can't help but let out a laugh at the comparison.

"It's not the same, Toto" I say and he nods "At the end of the day, it's the same... he loves you and you love him, right? That's all that should matter, Emilia. So stop trying to find excuses or things to avoid whatever you are avoiding, alright?" he replies quickly before standing up and leaving me there alone. The free practice it's over and I see the mechanics pushing George's car into the garage.

It's almost 9pm when I finally finish the work at my office. Lewis stopped by after quali, Lando, Carlos and Charles texted me a few times during the day and Daniel invited me to have lunch with him at McLaren. Isn't any different to any normal day at the circuit. I hear a soft knock on the door and I quickly say "come in" before and I see a head sticking out "Are you done?" he asks and I smile at him before nodding "How long have you been waiting outside?" I ask and he enters the office and approaches me 

"Not so long" he says and I look at him waiting for the true answer "An hour?" he admits shyly and I smile at him "Let's go back to the hotel" I propose before standing up and putting my arms around his waist and he gently kisses my forehead "How was work?" he asks and I take a step back "You know the rules, babe. No work-related questions" I say but he kiss me "I meant how was your day at work" he tells me

"It was fine... Toto gave me a speech and threatened to take away his blessing" I say while we walk to the paddock, there's a few people around but most of the teams left earlier than us. "He wants to take away his blessing?" He asks laughing "Not really, he just wanted to annoy me" I say intertwining our hands.

"I need his blessing, so don't make him take it away please" he tells me and I nod "But I need the blessing of half of the grid too... why everyone is so protective at you?" he adds quickly confused "Because I'm Toto's daughter and everyone loves me" I said proud "Sometimes I think you actually believe you're Toto's daughter" he says resigned "It's more like a lifestyle than a fact, and everyone agree to that. So why I should change it?" I correct him. The first time I met him, he actually asked if I was Toto's daughter because nobody really knew the true. 

"By the way" I said trying to catch his attention when we got in his car "The girl from social media said anything to you?" I ask changing the subjet, he takes a few seconds before answering "He called me and asked if we want to do something about it, beside the thing with the girl and the photos leaked. But... there's no point in doing something now" he explains me and I nod feeling bad. Deep down I knew that he was ready to share our relationship with the world, and I... I wasn't ready, or I think I'm not ready because I'm too used to this open secret. 

"If we could start all over again... would you do something different?" I asks and he turns to see me quickly and back to the road "I don't think so... I like the way it all happened" he reassures me "and you? You want to change something?" he asks me now and I think about it for a few seconds "Yes" I said and he looks at me a little surprised "I want to change something" I add but I take my phone from my bag and open my Instagram.