"Kazuha I'm sorry for i treated you..I don't know what's gotten into me..." I cooed, gently hugging his arm i didn't have the guts to leave bed, i would miss him "It's fine dear you didn't mean it right?" He asked, of course i wanted him to be mine but I've gotten a bit overboard.. "I never meant any of this.." i hugged onto his arm tighter
Scara was holding onto me so tightly. I missed the nights and days when we would do this, when we were younger. When it comes to cuddling Scara's always on top.
I feel good with him, he makes me at peace, he's calming and relaxing i could sleep to the sound of his heart beat. I indeed love this man but i then remember our kids at first i didn't want the kids because i got them by force but now i don't know what to do with them i don't know if i can life with a lot of commitment like this it's nice to have kids but i don't think I'm ready...it's so hard not being carefree about anything, but because i did have then i'll keep them they're only children after all
Kazuha was looking perplexed i wonder what's going on in his mind...I put my hand on his chin and kissed his cheek softly, wanting to calm him down, he looked at me with a soft gaze "Kazuha is there something wrong?" I asked hugging his arm, nuzzling around his collar bone, i seem to be enjoying the sight of purple and blue that i left on him before...Then he answered "I was just thinking about the kids."
(In this story Scaramouche is 6'2 and Kazuha's 5'8 sorry i didn't tell you sooner...)
Oh..He was thinking about the kids honestly i loved them but now they're just bad memories..maybe I should just kill them? No that's too cruel but what would I do instead i can't set them for adoption or abandon them they're 7 now i can't abort them, how about i just freeze they're bodies so i can preserve they're bodies? I feel as if i should freeze them they're not like me, i was created with magic and technically came out of thin air but Kazuha was human and anyways i was planning to curse him with immortality i haven't yet i want him to stay with me forever. When i impregnated him he was human but had a good line of blood so he was strong but alas fell fragile and weak into my hands, after what i did to him it would take some time to heal, i won't tell him what i thought.
"Kazuha everything's gonna be alright." I said and went in for a kiss and lightly put a kiss on his collar bone and hugged him he buried his face onto my shoulder and hugged me back i started to doze off a bit and fell asleep...
/In the morning/
Birds chirped as the healing couple started to wake up it was early morning and the sun was rising but shame the house didn't have windows, in the mean time Kazuha woke up and gently put Scaramouche in a more comfortable position as in hugging the pillow and Kazuha went down to the kids and woke them up for school, he went down stairs to make breakfast but there was nothing left somebody had to go buy groceries, he would gladly buy more cooking ingredients but Scaramouche doesn't allow to ever leave at least the house is big and he could go to the back yard but it was always go black and gloomy there and he feels the presences of negativity there so he doesn't dare to go there
(That negative presence is me actually y'all lucky i didn't do y'all dirty and made serious angst and make you cry as hard you ever will in your whole entire life.)
I woke up hugging a pillow "Hngg..." I sat up, stretched and yawned i panicked when i didn't have Kazuha next to me but i calmed down a litte and walked down stairs and saw Kazuha reading a book while sitting on the couch i walked over to him and sat beside him pulling him closer, he put the book down and looked me in the eyes "Scara there's no more groceries.." Oh so that's why he wasn't cooking "Because there's no groceries how about we both go out and buy more?" I offered to him with a gentle smile he looked surprised "I'm allowed to go outside??" He asked, confused "Yes but only with me" he looked relieved and hugged me i patted his head and kissed his forehead "It's raining outside so we should probably bring an umbrella.." he said, muffled into my shirt, i chuckled and got up carrying him "Kaz..You can cook tomorrow maybe we can order takeout for now.." I carried him back to bed and cuddled with him i was still sleepy
I was cuddled into Scara's chest i loved listening to his heartbeat but sometimes i don't hear regardless of my keen hearing, i put my arms around his neck and kissed him, he ruffled my hair "Kazuha you're so cute♪" i blushed and hid my face into his chest and laughed a little
I have an urge of doing something..."Kazuha" I spoke "Hmmm...?" He looked up "How do i put this.." i want to propose to him again "I want to remarry you" the first time wasn't perfect, he looked delightfully surprised "Really?" He asked i nodded happily "I love you and i want this marriage to be something both of us enjoyed" i cooed and took a stand of his hair twirling it around my fingers he looked at me sweetly and i just couldn't resist and kissed him "I'll get you a proper ring and a wedding and a good honeymoon i hope this wedding will be perfect." I said in anticipation "I hope so too.." He replied, i kissed his forehead and brushed the hair out of his face.
